hmmm...so another year is coming to an end.

2011 is just like another ordinary year. i had a fair share of ups and downs. i cried, i laughed, i got pissed, i got depressed and i made new friends. but i guess all these emotions and experiences allowed me to grow and learn.

i guess im ok academically. not too good but not bad either. haha. i remembered how afraid i was 365 days ago, at the thought of becoming 16, at the thought of being a senior in school. but well, i survived. it was tough and stressful but its normal i guess. i love 414'11<3 and thank my awesome groupmates for making my school life more exciting and interesting :) love ya guys<3

some of the highlights this year:

season'11.

so maybe the result wasnt what we wanted and it was really really difficult to get over this mental obstacle, but i think that i've gained much more through the failure. i am so thankful for CEREALS and im really thankful for them.

sometimes we equate amount of effort put in to the overcome. but i guess, its not as simple as 1 +1 =2

though we put in a lot of hours into training, i guess we weren't exactly training HARD. i finally discovered the meaning of training hard after join the adiv training.

hopefully we are able to overcome the obstacle and learn from it and work towards being better next year :)

6a chalet

omg. haha probably one of the best chalets. haha 3d2n (Y) love how 6a is still super close. and the post chalet symdrome which happens every year. but idk why this year, we are meeting more frequently then ever. omg its like 1 outing every week or smth. haha but i dont mind :) think that phase will die down soon though. so enjoy while it last :)

love this bunch of retarded classmates. hopefully my class next year will be as fun :)

softball australia trip

was awesome despite the trainings and games like almost everyday. but i love adiv'12 for making it so enjoyable and fun! hope that sand punishment wont occur next year. it was hell! ):

getting a job

haha ok i shant talk about this. too embarrassing alr. haha

ok i cant think of everything else atm, haha shall add in when i remember.

i thank God for bringing me through everything this year and i hope that He will continue to guide me through my JC life next year with new sch, new environment.

im feeling a combination of nerves, dread and excitement for 2012, as sussan puts it. i wont hope that 2012 will be awesome because i know it wont always be. I just hope that I will face all the shit is thrown at me with a positive attitude and treasure all the good and fun times. have an awesome new year guys! :D

I really love 6A. Bestest class i ever had. Seriously. Everybody is so family. U can not meet for a year and still be super close and there is no awkwardness at all. And 8 girls+boys can sleep next to each other without feeling strange or anything.

Polar bear, watching mama, basketball/volleyball/midnight frisbee, blind mice, 8 people squeezing in a bed etc(Y)

I love 6A :)) cant wait for sentosa outing

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Just got a job at swensens recently. And im really thankful to God for it. I know i shouldnt be complaining but i really dont like working there. But i will persevere because i wanted a job and i dont want to be a spoilt brat who quits just because it tough. Yea maybe aaron is right, joe can work with me and i will have a friend and i wont hate it as much.

Feel guilty for ponning today. Ok from today, i wont pon work anymore.

On another note, fiction by beast is damn addicting. IM IN LOVE WITH THE SONG :)))

I dreamt that my grandma wanted to get a second husband, so she went to korea with my dad to pick a husband. And somehow she picked HEECHUL!!! HAHAAHA. And i was like "HEECHUL OF SJ?!?!" and my grandma said that he was handsome. Lol and then i annouced to the whole world. And my grandma told me to get use to calling him grandpa. Haha AWKWARD!!!

BUT...the biggest disappointment came when he was alr on the plane and we were on the way to fetch him and and AND...I WOKE UP! ): i didnt even get to meet him face to face even in real life. Siannnn.

But ah well. Enjoyed my dream!

finally found time to:

read a book

rent movies to watch

pack my room

do QT

next on my list:

learn to cook

find a job

decorate my room

hopefully i will have a fulfilling holiday and not waste it like i always have

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really loved this paragraph when I was reading it. it spoke to me really well. I've always been socially awkward and I really hate it when there is a momentary lapse of silence between me and somebody else. feel like there is a huge pressure on me to keep the conversation going. especially when i converse with someone im not im not close to, i tend to map out how the conversation should go in my head. really hate that aspect of myself ): i realised that sometimes, silence speaks volume and it may not be always a bad thing.

i think that in a way silence helps me distinguish who im genuinely close to and who im not...