Little Ones

2011-12-30T22:47:00.004+09:00

a blogpost for a proper closure to the year.

hmmm...so another year is coming to an end.

2011 is just like another ordinary year. i had a fair share of ups and downs. i cried, i laughed, i got pissed, i got depressed and i made new friends. but i guess all these emotions and experiences allowed me to grow and learn.

i guess im ok academically. not too good but not bad either. haha. i remembered how afraid i was 365 days ago, at the thought of becoming 16, at the thought of being a senior in school. but well, i survived. it was tough and stressful but its normal i guess. i love 414'11<3 and thank my awesome groupmates for making my school life more exciting and interesting :) love ya guys<3

some of the highlights this year:

season'11.

so maybe the result wasnt what we wanted and it was really really difficult to get over this mental obstacle, but i think that i've gained much more through the failure. i am so thankful for CEREALS and im really thankful for them.

sometimes we equate amount of effort put in to the overcome. but i guess, its not as simple as 1 +1 =2

though we put in a lot of hours into training, i guess we weren't exactly training HARD. i finally discovered the meaning of training hard after join the adiv training.

hopefully we are able to overcome the obstacle and learn from it and work towards being better next year :)

6a chalet

omg. haha probably one of the best chalets. haha 3d2n (Y) love how 6a is still super close. and the post chalet symdrome which happens every year. but idk why this year, we are meeting more frequently then ever. omg its like 1 outing every week or smth. haha but i dont mind :) think that phase will die down soon though. so enjoy while it last :)

love this bunch of retarded classmates. hopefully my class next year will be as fun :)

softball australia trip

was awesome despite the trainings and games like almost everyday. but i love adiv'12 for making it so enjoyable and fun! hope that sand punishment wont occur next year. it was hell! ):

getting a job

haha ok i shant talk about this. too embarrassing alr. haha

ok i cant think of everything else atm, haha shall add in when i remember.

i thank God for bringing me through everything this year and i hope that He will continue to guide me through my JC life next year with new sch, new environment.

im feeling a combination of nerves, dread and excitement for 2012, as sussan puts it. i wont hope that 2012 will be awesome because i know it wont always be. I just hope that I will face all the shit is thrown at me with a positive attitude and treasure all the good and fun times. have an awesome new year guys! :D

2011-12-03T23:28:00.003+09:00

6A chalet was AWESOMEEE. As usual. Haha.

I really love 6A. Bestest class i ever had. Seriously. Everybody is so family. U can not meet for a year and still be super close and there is no awkwardness at all. And 8 girls+boys can sleep next to each other without feeling strange or anything.

Polar bear, watching mama, basketball/volleyball/midnight frisbee, blind mice, 8 people squeezing in a bed etc(Y)

I love 6A :)) cant wait for sentosa outing

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Just got a job at swensens recently. And im really thankful to God for it. I know i shouldnt be complaining but i really dont like working there. But i will persevere because i wanted a job and i dont want to be a spoilt brat who quits just because it tough. Yea maybe aaron is right, joe can work with me and i will have a friend and i wont hate it as much.

Feel guilty for ponning today. Ok from today, i wont pon work anymore.

On another note, fiction by beast is damn addicting. IM IN LOVE WITH THE SONG :)))

2011-11-26T18:55:00.002+09:00

Had a super funny dream just now. Haha just gotta post this or else i will forget.

I dreamt that my grandma wanted to get a second husband, so she went to korea with my dad to pick a husband. And somehow she picked HEECHUL!!! HAHAAHA. And i was like "HEECHUL OF SJ?!?!" and my grandma said that he was handsome. Lol and then i annouced to the whole world. And my grandma told me to get use to calling him grandpa. Haha AWKWARD!!!

BUT...the biggest disappointment came when he was alr on the plane and we were on the way to fetch him and and AND...I WOKE UP! ): i didnt even get to meet him face to face even in real life. Siannnn.

But ah well. Enjoyed my dream!

2011-11-23T12:05:00.004+09:00

enjoying my holidays so far :) its not unproductive and there is so many things I want to do.

finally found time to:

read a book

rent movies to watch

pack my room

do QT

next on my list:

learn to cook

find a job

decorate my room

hopefully i will have a fulfilling holiday and not waste it like i always have

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"...The young, brash and impatient must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox."

- The Notebook

really loved this paragraph when I was reading it. it spoke to me really well. I've always been socially awkward and I really hate it when there is a momentary lapse of silence between me and somebody else. feel like there is a huge pressure on me to keep the conversation going. especially when i converse with someone im not im not close to, i tend to map out how the conversation should go in my head. really hate that aspect of myself ): i realised that sometimes, silence speaks volume and it may not be always a bad thing.

i think that in a way silence helps me distinguish who im genuinely close to and who im not...

2011-11-09T20:33:00.002+09:00

a few more hours of mugging and i will officially complete my sec 4 exams. cant wait for it to be over.

2011-11-05T15:39:00.010+09:00

emotions are so frightening. whether good or bad. they drive your thoughts and translate into irrational actions and words, changing you into someone...or something else

the world is such an unfathomable place ):

yet we cant live by without emotions. driven only by rules will only make the world heartless and void of compassion. i wish we could just retain only the pleasant emotions and people are always happy and have nothing ugly to hide.

sometimes i wonder why God created anger, fear, hypocrisy, jealousy. they just bring hurt to people.

im not being emo here. just came across something that makes me think.

shouldn't have read that. sometimes, ignorance is bliss...

2011-10-28T00:28:00.002+09:00

having encouraging friends give me instant happiness :D

2011-10-27T23:52:00.003+09:00

hate making decisions. i get stressed. i stress everybody. life sucks. #whycantlifebesimpler

FAM. SUBJ COMBI. AUS vs YOUTH CAMP

DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS. i think imma break down and cry rn. stressed ):

God please tell me what to do. im confused.

wherever You lead, I will follow.

Proverbs 3:5-6

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

2011-10-11T22:48:00.001+09:00

AH EMBARRASSED BY 204 GANG. but i had so much fun :D miss yall!

cant believe i was so childish last time.

AND HAI GINTENG, I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS.

ok im happy today hopefully results good tmr :)

2011-10-08T00:30:00.003+09:00

feeling better today :D

today i found out about some stuff over lunch. the world is such a scary place :O everybody is judging you from the way you look, the way you talk etc. if only people would stop being so judgmental and learn to LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE. yea i should learn too. i think i care too much about what others think of me.

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during the SAT talk today, it suddenly struck me that im gonna be growing up real quick, living my own life and making life changing decisions. I felt super terrified about my future. like what if everybody else makes it in life except me. what if i dont do well in Alevels, what do I do? what if...

im scared. i feel so uncertain about my future and i have completely no idea what i want it to look like.

i have this crazy idea about escaping from the crazy shit to a far away remote place where i can just live a super relaxed and peaceful life. NO STRESS AT ALL.

ah but it will only remain a dream.

2011-10-06T01:11:00.002+09:00

read something very apt today. thank you Lord for the timely message.

Whatever we do, we will do it as a living testimony of Christ being in us. Does this mean, we will be happy, happy, happy, all the time? No, of course not. Life is a mixture of wonderful, happy times, and also sad, and tragic times. As a Christian, though, we know that everything that happens to us is by the will of God. He gives us the strength to endure many unhappy and tragic times. We know that our home is no longer here, but in heaven. Therefore, though we may not always be happy, we can always have a peace with God. We are no longer tossed to and fro by everything we go through, but rest in the confidence that our God is there, and takes care of us through the hard times.

sometimes God's timing really amazes me. today edwin told me that my status update on facebook was super apt as his he was finding a verse to encourage someone and he found my status very helpful. i felt super encouraged after he told me that.

God's timing could be anymore perfect.

2011-10-05T22:53:00.004+09:00

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

everything is going wrong in life D: sometimes i think about "why me, lord" WHY? "why cant i be like her?" even though its might be easy to say "trust in the lord", but sometimes its really tough especially when everything is so overwhelming. when we're blinded by all the misfortunes in life, when we get carried away, we forget that there is God who is in control. i guess i can only rely on Jeremiah 29:11 to carry on and be strong.

I try my best to be happy because im not hate crying BUT sometimes i wish i can just cry out loud. its really tiring.

I always try to be positive and tell myself that out there in the world there are people worse off than me and im very lucky to be me BUT there are others who are so much better.

I try my best BUT sometimes it just doesn't translate into concrete results.

Lord, please help me lean on you for strength and peace and keep on trusting in you.

Amen

Friends

2011-08-09T11:39:00.004+09:00

OMG I GOT INTO MY BLOGGER ACCOUNT. HAHA i've been locked out so many times...

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPOREEEE.

so many things i wanna blog about omg.

i guess life's pretty good for me these days. cant complain.

one thing that im most thankful to God for are my friends. i've been constantly reminded about how awesome friends i have and i really cant say more about how wonderful and a blessing they've been to me.

6a'07

I think 6a'07 has been that bestest class i've been in and probably the most bonded class. despite being in different schools and busy with our lives, we still come together annually for a chalet and get together. its also amazing how we are still so close and i think the best part is we dont have cliques or hierarchy of some sort. everybody just gel so well together.

204'09

although we are now in different classes, im still glad that we still keep in touch and it always feels comfortable talking to you guys. and i feel super satisfied after those retarded convos.

414'11

i've grown so much closer to 414 since last year and im really happy with my sitting arrangement :D despite not being an outstanding class that wins every other competition and not being the most lovable class, but what i really like about 414 is how i feel so comfortable being in it. i remembered last year i said smth about not being able to fully be who i was, but now i can truly and sincerely say that what i am to all of you, is who i really am :)

youthphoria

I thank God for putting me in youthphoria and despite not being there for long, i really love it there. everybody is so welcoming and friendly and funny and its really awesomee. thank you Lord for putting me in youthphoria to experience the love of your people.

cereals

i can safely and proudly declare that cereals is the awesomest bunch of people i've met and despite saying this many times, im still gonna say it. I LOVE CEREALS'11 we may not be the coolest batch but cereals will always be my closest group of friends in rgs. we need no photos to show how close we are. we just need one another :) and i thank God for allowing be to be in softball and meeting cereals, cause i cant imagine what my life would be like otherwise.

thank you Lord for the amazing friends that you have provided me with. Thank you for putting them into my life so that they can support me and bring joy and laughter into my life and shape me into who i am today. I hope that as much as they have impacted me with their lives, you will also use me to speak to them and encourage them. Thank you Lord once again for these wonderful people you have chosen to place in my life.

amen

2011-05-14T11:00:00.001+09:00

lalala

2011-04-13T18:23:00.003+09:00

today was SA day 2.
bio went pretty well i guess :) quite happy with what i wrote.

but CHINESE WAS A TOTAL SCREW UP. well, i can accept the fact that the paper was no easy one, but the thing that pissed me off was my state of mind during the 2hrs. those 2hrs were like hell.
firstly, i had running nose and i kept sniffing. so that kinda like lowered my concentration and later on, my eyes hurt like crap ):
and i had no idea why but my mind was in a mess.
and i kept hear voices in my head telling me: you're time is running out" "you cannot finish the paper in time" "you're not gonna do well" "you are so screwed"
i kept trying to fight away these noises but they keep coming back, louder than before.
i kept panicking towards the end because i really thought i couldn't. and my whole mind was super tensed up that i couldn't think straight.
i remembered at one point of time, it was so bad that i wanted to walk out of class there and then.

sian i wonder what happen to me ):
i know that i couldn't have done well for that paper, but at least if it wasn't for the my brain condition, i could have done better ):
hate those kinda feelings when you know you messed up a paper.

2011-03-26T11:22:00.002+09:00

feeling so screwed for SS. i understand whats going on but i dont get how everything is linked :/ and its only 3 days before exams.
shoots. i feel so helpless. BAHHHHH. this sucks. SS was supposed to be my "throw away" subject but i thought since i got not bad results for my AA, i should just count SS in. BUT STUPID SA IS SO SCREWED UP. HOW DO I WRITE AN ARTICLE REVIEW AND HOW DO ALL THESE WEIRD THINGS LINK.
D:

my junior is leaving for australia today. i wanna go send her off though

2011-03-23T23:11:00.001+09:00

i just discovered that cool band on youtube called cimorelli :D HAHA awesome 6 sisters :) i love all their covers and their harmonizations are PURE AWESOMENESS.
I LOVE PRAY by bieber (L)

haha random.

ok back to studying SS :)

2011-03-19T22:18:00.012+09:00

why couldnt softball be so much simpler?

why couldnt it just be a game played by people who simply love and enjoy the game?

why does winning and losing matter so much?

why does have to bring so much pain and anger to my friends?

why does it hurt so much?

WHYYYY????? WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

i have no idea what is it im feeling now but im sure it will go away...

i just wanna surrender all to God now. im tired. really tired.

sorry this post is kinda shallow, im not good with words. but i dont care anymore.

one of my greatest regret that i'll probably ever have is not joining softball in sec 1.

2011-03-06T20:45:00.003+09:00

havent been here for a really long time. i guess twitter has replaced blogger now. but i shall do this for memory's sake

-anyway the only thing worth blogging is season. didnt make it to the semis )': i shant go into detail because its just gonna make me cry again. just felt really really disappointed and we cried a lot. after all the hardwork, surely we deserve something more. but i guess its God's will

but no matter what, I LOVE CEREALS AND I LOVE RGSOFTBALL.

food therapy ftw!

-my sweet sixteen was really awesome. because of CEREALS

-term 1 is finally over(sorta). i think that i enjoy sec 4 more than i did in sec 3. i guess sec 3 was the phase where i was like figuring out where i belonged. anyway brotherhood ftw! :) i love how our class spirit is always displayed through last minute class decors. its like how the day before the deadline, everybody is working hard to get things up and i love that feeling.

sec 4 is starting to get crazy but i will survive

-i love youthphoria.

-ss3 is the best experience i had!!! too awesome for words. never thought that i would get to go but omg i won tickets :) happy ttm. the tseats kinda sucked but thank God the indoor stadium is small so its still relatively near. MY 1ST EVER CONCERT WAS AWESOMEEEE.>

nothing much.

ok bye

2011-01-13T22:42:00.003+09:00

today was the announcement of the team list...

i really didnt know what to feel. happy yet confused and scared and everything. after coach and the teachers left. the atmosphere was super solemn.

after that, we had a batch hug and we just talked about our feelings and stuff.

i dont know why but tears just started falling and i couldnt stop crying. i didnt knew what i was feeling at that moment but i just kept crying. but i felt super super emotional.

i really really really want all 12 of us to be in it. but i guess somehow, things aren't always going the way i want.

but i just want to say that i really love each and everyone of my batchies and they are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

no matter whether you are in it or not, we are still a batch. we are still cereals.

chingyee.esna.kimberly.victoria.charlene.dayana.arunima.stephanie.liting.tracy.wanli.michelle. ♥

CEREALS ♥

we are 12 best friends♥♥

i also have to thank God for everything that he has done and im so glad that he heard my prayers.

God is good all the time.

2010-12-30T14:52:00.002+09:00

omg! tmr is the last day of 2010. 2010 passed ridiculously fast. and tmr is the last day i'm a sec 3 and from sat onwards i'm a sec4. scary much. hopefully 2011 will be a better year.

i better treasure my last year at rgs. i dont wanna grow up yet. i'm not ready. i wanna stay young forever D:

resolutions for 2011:

spend less money

be nicer to my parents

become closer to God

work harder

lose weight :)

2010-12-18T15:02:00.002+09:00

OMG 2 WEEKS LEFT TILL SCH. im so not ready for this.

anyway 6a'07 chalet was awesomeee. midnight bball/captain's ball and 3+ hours of bridge weird kpop talks is fun. AND SOMEONE NEEDS TO TEACH ME MONOPOLY DEAL.

anyway, its nice catching up with 6a and its really awesome to still be keeping in touch and having annual chalets. 6A IS THE BESTEST CLASS I'VE EVER/WILL EVER HAVE. seriously. 5th chalet alr and more to come, (super belated) class tee. WHAT CAN BEAT THAT.

ok so went for training half dead and came back to sleep for 13hrs. now im sick. but i'll still go for christmas partyyy later on :)

2010-12-01T08:40:00.003+09:00

im back from australia :) its awesome :):):) so now its back to reality.

december is here which means there is only one month left to a new year, one month left before i become a senior, one month left of major slacking.

i shan't waste my holiday away like i always do then look back at it and curse myself for not spending it wisely.

plans for december:

church camp

6a chalet

204 outing

batch chalet

softball camp

STUDY!!!!

watch dramas :)

2010-11-11T01:35:00.006+09:00

since no one really reads this anymore, i shall just post freely.

decided to blog after reading poh's blog post.

bah 2010 really flew past. OBS seemed so recent and guess what? its alr december hols. 2010 didnt start off well. i had this i-miss-sec2 syndrome and for the first few months i just cant seem to shake this feeling away.

there are times where i feel that 314 is bonded yet there are times i dont think we are. sometimes i may say stuff like "314♥" but most of the time i dont mean what i say.

i guess its just a culture shock? the vast difference between 314 and 204 is that 204 is very alive during lessons and i 314 is like super quiet. i thought its like a passing phase that all classes face because we were all so unfamiliar with one another, but even until the end, we were still like that. and during netcarn, i found out a lot about how the other sec2 classes were like. the way we handle netcarn really says a lot about a class. really miss those good old days in 204.

i wasnt really comfortable in expressing myself in 314 and im like neither here nor there. and thoughtout the year, i wished for a day where i will finally be able to act like myself in front of my classmates and can have heart to heart talks.

after getting to know my seatmates, falling in love with them and the class outing, i begin to feel good about 314(this is real). its like i found a place where i can finally be like retarded self and letting my guards down.

i remembered that when i asked 314 "do you prefer your former class or 314?" during class outing.

most answered 314, without hesitation. i couldnt even answer my own qns. but for now my ans would be 204.

But God placed me in 314 for a reason and i will just accept with joy :)

i hope 414'11 will be more bonded and talkative. 414'11 fighting!

2010-10-31T21:14:00.003+09:00

WOW i havent been blogging for a longggg longggg time. want to delete this blog but i feel obliged to keep it alive. ahh shall type out wht happened in the past month in point forms. too lazy to go into details.

1. exam results are quite good :)

2.wcp with 204

3. jongkyung D: (but i got over it quite soon)

4. snsd's hoot and shinee's hello

5. missed kpop night ):

6. softball camp maybe can go :)

7. gym concert :):)

8. found kdrama's to watch!

9. netcarn!!! 2nd overall.

10.tri jie jie come back.

yup thats about it. shall update if i think of anything else.

2010-09-10T00:38:00.004+09:00

gah...im too lazy to post nowadays.

holidays are about to end and im so unproductive. I SHALL WORK HARD TMR. :) coach's today was awesome :) but im broke alr. me and ching yee went to some ulu place to source for some megaphone which costed $53.50. COAHC BETTETR TREAT IT WITH TENDER LOVING CARE(RULE #1) because 53.50 is not cheap. and if grandma didnt live near there, i bet me and ching yee wouldnt freaking find the place. its so ulu until cannot be anymore ulu-er. but yay im so proud of us :)

i love my batch so much. monday ri training was probably the best one i've ever had. 10 people came and they are all sec3s. batch training is funnnnn :):)

hmmm...nothing much really happened i guess. I JUST HOPE EXAMS ARE OVER SOON AND I CAN WATCH FO SOOOON.

and RANDOM TAGGERS...STOP TAGGING. i know my blog its dead but just stop it.

2010-08-29T14:35:00.003+09:00

i love the song jesus you are my lord. its really meaningful and i cry listening to it.

i guess what sets us asides from others is the way we look at life. everybody go through ups and downs, but with God, we see things differently.

YOG was fun. good job singapore. volleyball is super duper awesome :)

2010-08-22T00:48:00.002+09:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN TAN!

(so sorry for my screwed up present :/)

yay 6a class chalet is on again! and i think that seah just designed this class shirt for us :) its awesomeee! haha i miss 6a :) cant wait for chalet.

ah sleepover is cancelled yesterday. GET WELL SOON BOWLING! its ok. next friday also can. haha. i cant wait either.

ok so eyas is starting on term 4 week 3. trip sciences need to mug soon. testing on whole years topics :O i realised that this year past pretty damn fast. its already term 3 week 9 and i remembered OBS happening only recently. gosh, sec 4 next yr. aaahhhh.

2010-08-14T17:04:00.002+09:00

i know that this is a bit lag... BUT MY 40 DAY FB/TWITTER FAST IS OVER!!!!
i realised that i can actually survive without facebook :) no more addicted. prolly next time i'll do kpop? LOL. this will be hard.

today is YOG opening ceremony. VANYAP is doing SOLO. how cool is that. im gonnasee her on national tv :))) but what ang(LOL) said make sense. singapore was probably picked as the 1st venue for YOG because they are using us as guinea pigs. if YOG doesnt work out, this may be the first and last you'll see of YOG. so true.

although HBL is a total scam, its still a day off from school:) ah cant wait.
and wth are random weirdos tagging on my blog???

ps. if anyone knows of a blogshop that sells little miss customise tees. please tell me. its urgent!

2010-08-07T16:14:00.002+09:00

the promises i never kept.

2010-08-05T21:41:00.008+09:00

I dont deny that i felt kinda disappointed. but that feeling of sadness didnt last long. after morning assembly, i was pretty much fine :)

thank you for everything friends. dont treat me any differently cause I am still me. I am going to keep smiling because the joy of the lord is my strength. Thank you huizhen for that. i dont have to be regconised for anything, and i didnt plan to. I'm just doing to follow what I think is right and good.

failure is never obstacle for me, i'll be like"fail then fail lor". optimistic perhaps? or simply because it doesnt matter.

who am i? i am not a capt. i am a Child of God.

2010-08-04T00:24:00.003+09:00

YEA MAN. im done with chinese and ss pt speech. and i can say im done for geog too! my geog is kinda screwed. the shirt damn ugly. bet no one would wanna buy it. D:

today marks the end of the PT-ful life in sec 3. no more pts till sec4 :)

i realised that since the end of term 1, i've adopted the I-dont-really-care-anymore attitude which is really really bad. at times, i really question why i bother to study to much. after all, when i turn 30...who will still remember what i get for english or chinese. and i will simply just dont care about everything, putting my minimal effort into it. i know i shouldnt be feeling like this, but sometimes i cant help it.

on the sidenote, tmr is results. it wont affect me much i guess. no matter what, my feelings will stay neutral. i fine going either ways. but i'll commit all in to God's hands.

2010-08-01T12:56:00.002+09:00

oh this sucks. I've just checked some website and it says that AI the stupid taiwan drama has 772 eps. :O and guess what, in singapore it is only airing the 345th episode.

doing simple calculations,

the show will continue airing for a year. THIS IS BAD.

just making a random point here. BUT THIS SUCKS BIG TIME.

anyway, im more or less done memorising my chinese pt. hopefully i wont screw up tmr. i still not experiencing butterflies in my stomach yet, which i would by now previously. ah... chinese shouldnt be too scary. whatmore, im the first. lets just get it over and done with.

hopefully sspt wouldnt be too tough either. im afraid they ask some idk hw to answer questions and i will just freeze there and die. i suck at answering questions on the spot.

whatever it is, im commiting it to God. I will keep praying :)

2010-07-29T23:56:00.004+09:00

campaigning ends tmr. its kinda good yet bad.

good cause i'll finially be free-er

bad because i will miss the stuff i do.

during the course of this campaigning season, it made me realise that i have many good friends. as cliche as this may sound, i really appreciate them and im thankful for them. Thank you Lord.

though it may not seem like you've helped me a lot, with just a "you're posters are so pretty" "your cake is so nice" it really made my day.

im really thankful to the people that really helped me in contributing ideas, pasting posters, designing stickers,publicizing, designing my stones and whatnot. I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU ALL.

314: thank you for all the support and encouragement you've given me.

batch: thank for all my standing by me and giving me advices and stuff. CEREALS FTW!

weiqi: thank you for helping me design all those pretty stickers. i really really really thank you for helping me these 2 years. ily

huiyu,sunthu,jenn,xining,karen: thanks for designing stickers and publicizing. :)

huizhen: thanks for sacrificing recesses to help me paste posters, and giving my encouragements everyday!

lou: we can do this together! thanks for all the help

crystal: thank you for helping me design the water cooler posters and helping me stick them up!

VIC: I HAVE TO THANK YOU THE MOST. THANKS FOR LENDING ME YOUR HOUSE TO BAKE AND THANKS FOR HELPING ME DO THE STONES. THANK YOU FOR ALSO COMING EARLY IN THE MORNING SO WE CAN CHIONG FOR THE NORMAL BUS AND GIVING ME ADVICES,DESIGNING STICKERS. so much to thank you for. ILY. i promise when campaign is over, i'll do smth for you!

kim and esna: thank you for doing the stones and stickers. :) wo ai ni.

my family: thank for daddy and mummy for helping me in everything and tolerating my frustrations and auntie for searching for all the stuff i need. and JULIAN for helping me look for pebbles.

whatever the outcome, it doesnt matter anymore (not like it did from the start) because i did my best and i found whom i can trust and depend on.

Dear Lord,

I thank you for giving me an opportunity to discover that such awesome friends.

Amen.

2010-07-28T20:28:00.002+09:00

stupid SOmeone was being so ass today. like wth. she scolded ask when it was her who didnt make herself clear. -.-

on the other hand, CLE was awesome today. sex ed was very interesting :)

mother tongue week wasnt too bad. the xiang sheng was better than expected.

ok i gotta edit my script before presentation tmr.

2010-07-26T19:18:00.003+09:00

26 down. 14 to go.

dance concert was awesome. karen came to my house before we went for the concert. we were supposed to meet for dinner. and we supposed to be the earliest but we ended up the latest to arrive. AT USUAL. haha. when we left the house, weiqi alr reached:O but dude, it wasnt our fault. BLAME IT ON THE BUS! LOL.

i loved the alumni dance and the kpop dance! awesome performance overall. and it was fun just standing in the crowd and looking at what people are wearing. its very interesting.

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oh crap. nothing is going in the right way. i cant find pebbles. i cant bake cookies today. i cant give out sweets today. argh. whatever. this sucks. end of story.

besides chinese pt and english pt and campaign. im pretty much free.

its not like i wanted this, so who cares.

2010-07-24T12:15:00.003+09:00

24 down, 16 to go

swimathon yesterday was fun. although i couldnt swim cause i cant but it was still awesome catching up with karen, bowling and celine :)

week 6 is going to be the worse week of my life.

monday: chinese pt presentation( 1st person)

tuesday: eng and ss pt presentation(1st person AGAIN)

wed: hand up geog pt.

oh man. i think i'm gonna dieee. but i will survive with God's help.

dp was so pms yesterday. and i was the victim of it. D: i was so pissed and embarrassed that i felt like punching her in the face.

im still undecided

2010-07-17T23:11:00.004+09:00

ah im feeling so stressed!

bio pt

campaign

chem spa

homework

dance steps to remember

FYI ALL THESE ARE DUE BY MONDAY

i dont think i'll live to see tmr. D: im actually stressed for the first time. sheeeesh. im died.

ps join my fb campaign group. :)

2010-07-09T22:32:00.001+09:00

i've decided that this is the life i want. simple as it is.
i wouldn't look back. i wouldn't regret.
im sorry.

2010-07-07T18:47:00.004+09:00

yay im done for my ss transcript although i dont think there is anything persuasive about it. im just randoming subbing in persuasive devices so that it actually looks persuasive when its not. but i dont think that ms ong will buy that. :/

7 days alr. 33 more to go.

now im not so much craving for facebook( oh i havent typed that word for so long!)

TODAY I SCREWED UP MY MATHS PAPER. REAL BADLY. i am so gonna be slaughtered by my mum. this is actually the first time i feel so insecure about my maths results. argh. seriously. i almost couldnt finish it. D:

but at least today is a go-home-at-9am day :)haha

ok i'm done with bio report, and transcript. i shall film my bio and do my chinese pt soon. bah. for now, its youtube surfing for super junior videos! toodles~

2010-07-02T22:14:00.003+09:00

i realised i havent been blogging for almost a month. :O i think its like the longest period i've gone not blogging. maybe twitter is like my new blog. i just keep updating statuses like every 5 minutes :)

the reason i'm back to blogging because i'm on a 40 days facebook and twitter fast! but i realised that i'm completely addicted to facebook. the past 2 days, everytime i open safari my fingers will automatically be on the keys F-A-C-E. then i realised oh shit...i cant do this. so i faster close the tab. LOL.

things to complete:

ss pt

maths revision

chinese pt

bio pt

geog pt

and i seriously need to buck up for softball! i must be pro.

ok break is over! back to doing excutive summary D:

PS SUPER JUNIOR'S 4TH REPACKAGED ALBUM IS AWWWEEESOOOMMMME. especially no other, shake it up remix and all my heart! i'm lovin it!

2010-06-09T15:39:00.002+09:00

went for sleepover at ahyi's house :)
we were cooking dinner for ahyi. haha our 3 course meal was totally awesome. lou and lars, lets go set up a restaurant :) and we play the huangshang and matong game. ahyi is still the same keeps alternating between ma tong and fan tong. hahaha.

on sunday, charis smsed me if im going for the suju showcase cause she is going. i suddenly had the urge to go.
so after much consideration (and bickering with lou and alrs) i decided to go last minute. :)
i paid 100 bucks for it thinking that it was actually worth it because it stated that it was 2.5hrs.
i went in like 45mins before the thing started and a lot of people were alr there. given my disadvantage in height, i had to tiptoe to get a clear view of the stage. there is this woman behind who said that she could see everyone's scalp. -.-
when the thing started, people started pushing around.no matter how i tiptoe all i could capture was people's cameras and their hands. -.- some fat woman in front on me keep pushing and squeezing forward. her hair keeping getting caught in my handphone and i was super annoyed that i pulled it out.

despite all these, i still managed to see ryeowook and suju live :)
the showcase ended like after 1h. o.o like what. its not even half of the stipulated time. 100 bucks for 1h??? but im happy anyway.

i never imagine myself to be paying so much just to catch a glimpse of some super star. i even told myself i wont be like those retards screaming like headless chickens for celebrity. but yes, i just did all of these on sunday. totally cant believe myself.

SUPER SHOW 3 IS COMING TO SINGAPORE. FINALLLY. :):):)
yea im on suju high.

2010-05-30T14:14:00.005+09:00

the hols are finally here. now, i promise not waste every minute of it, like how i always do. I WILL. MUST. CAN. make full use of it.

so thursday was sports fest.

sports fest
TARBET IS SPORTS FEST CHAMPION!!!!(in 27 years). haha. BUT TARBET IS FIRST. WEEE. good job house comm and all the people who ran. omg i totally cant believe it. finally under the sports fest column in the foyer there will be a red thing. but sports fest was totally awesome. i had loads of fun but i was practically dying under the heat during mass dance.

batch sleepover
after sports fest,we went to char's house for batch sleepover! ♥ it was freaking fun but her dog is super scary :O
we went to the playground to play and took a lot of jump shots and random other batch shots. yay esna's dslr is the best. :) then we played bridge and taidi and watched stick it. char's house is like some kinda food paradise. they nvr seem to run out of food to eat and they are really goood food. think i will grow fat if i stay there for a week. later we took a batch shot with all of us wearing the batch shirt. omg our shirts really turned out nice and pretty. just that i got vic's size wrong xD.

we slept in char's room and talked the whole night. i really my batch♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ classmates stay with you for at most 2 years but your batch stays with you for 4 years. the relationship between classmates and batchmates is really different. classmates are like friends but batchmates are like your siblings. and i really love talking to them about stuff.

CEREALS FTW! ♥

ching yee♥esna♥aru♥liting♥wanli♥tracy♥dayana♥kim♥steph♥vic♥char♥ltm♥

shopping
i hate shopping ttm! i dont get why people say that shopping is a therapy. IT IS NOT. in fact it is far from it.
reasons why shopping sucks:
1. money is wasted
2. shopping makes you hungry
3.shopping makes you tired
4. shopping kills your legs
5. bags of stuff are heavy to carry
6. time is wasted
7. going into every shop and not buying anything makes you crazy.

wish upon a star

2010-05-21T19:42:00.006+09:00

i wish that one day i can just forget about all my worries

i wish that i can just lie on the a big grass field and look up at the beautiful sky for hours and hours and just doing nothing

i wish that i can do this with the people i love

i wish that we can talk about everything and anything

i wish that my dream will come true and it will be the happiest day of my life.

i wish for just one day.a day of peace and serenity.

one last pt to go before the end of term2. im really looking forward to the holidays.

2010-05-16T02:15:00.002+09:00

i realised that i havent been blogging as much as last year. sec3 life totally sucks.

im really disappointed with my results. i felt totally crap. but i guess i deserved it. mum always say you reap what you sow. i MUST/DEFINITELY/SHOULD/WILL work harder for the next round of exams. i dont wanna screw up my grades again. it sucks seeing people around you rejoicing while you are at the corner crying inside.

im quite happy with myself for the house party today. I PLANNED IT (together with pualine,phyllis, sudesna and liyin). although things did not went as planned, but it was a success coz we need enough food, drinks and cultery to go around. :) and hi-5 was entertaining :D

last house prac of the year. its kinda like mixed feelings. im happy cause i dont have to wake up early in the morning. but yet i enjoy mass dance and stuff.

gonna miss it. and no house prac= no more heart to heart talks ):

WE NEED TO MEET UP!

alright i need to sleep. there still a lot of stuff waiting for me to complete tmr. oh the dread. but oh well. i shall sleep first and worry later.

2010-05-07T23:04:00.002+09:00

I'm dying here. GMH! SS AA, CHEM PT, PHYSICS PT, ENGLISH AA AND SMTH ELSE

yea see too much till i forget.

yea what happen to all those congress forums and stuff? less pts. totally true. AA is just another term for PT.

but michelle, press on. DECEMBER HOLS ARE COMING ~~in 6months time.~~

yay super junior's fourth album coming out soon. 6 MORE DAYS :) new song is called miinah. o.o the title sounds funneh but i hope its good. better than sorry sorry!

its kinda sad that 10 members will be there. but its ok super junior will always be the best! LESS THAN 3!

2010-05-02T19:48:00.002+09:00

wanting to get things right for the first time, wanting to start anew.
but fate has its way of turning things upside down.

I officially survived the worst week of my life. congrats michelle.

nothing went right this whole week. got back one paper everyday of the week=scolding everyday, which seriously sucks.
I didnt mean for things to turn out so bad, blame it on my laziness or lack of motivation.
i know my parents are very disappointed. Im sorry.
Im not sure why but instead studying, the first thing i did when i got home on tuesday was to read my bible and pray to God and i spent 45min doing my quiet time. I strongly felt the need to.
i guess is because during my exams I forgot about God, thinking that i could do this alone. but i realised that I needed Him a lot.
cried when i listened to came to my rescue by hillsong.
i love the song a lot. thank you Lord.

2010-04-25T20:47:00.000+09:00

happy birthday vic and liting :)

i think its cool that you guys have the same bday. thanks guys for being such awesome batchies and always making me smile. I thank God for you guys. LOVE LOVE LOVE you people :)
get well soon liting.

aaahhh im finally done with my math summary. i nvr thought that i needed so much time to settle it and it sucks even more when you type it out cause the stupid symbols never seem to exist. if i write it out it would have been so much easier, but i cant cause of my screwed handwriting.

so far i got back my eng and geog results. MY ENGLISH RESULTS WAS SUPRISINGLY PRO. the whole level did not do well, but it was the opposite for me. totally shocked when i received my results.
geog was disappointing although it was kinda of expected because i screwed up one question worth 5 marks and i misinterpreted one question. what makes things worse is that MY DAD IS A GEOG TEACHER. mlia.
i cant wait to get back my chinese and chem results hopefully things will look good.

should i learn ting xie or not?

2010-04-18T14:23:00.005+09:00

i realised that i havent been blogging for so long. haha coz i was busy mugging.

I TELL YOU. FRIDAYS EXAMS WERE A TOTAL SCREW UP!

maths:

wasnt that bad i guess. i could still manage. but i was already quite demoralised.

mood level: :/

physics: i forgot some stuff and i didnt know what was the speed of light so i just anyway how do. and then i think that the questions were like crap. i was like shitzzz. 25% gone.

mood level: D:

bio: i already decided to give up studying bio even before the exams coz im really bad tired of studying so i'll just crap and just die inside. halfway through the paper i totally decided to give up and just write crap. cause i cant take it anyway. like seriously. the questions were like damn wth. half of it didnt even need to be studied. so i calculated my marks. maximum i'll just pass.

mood level: @#$%^&*&^%$#$%^&

yesterday was ora! was damn fun! softball did a haunted hotel. HAUNTED H(ot)ELL we earned $1080. thats like twice of what we expected. we only expected like 500 plus only. but i seriously dont remember scaring like 500+ people. at first we were supposed to have shifts but due to the lack of manpower, we did for practically the entire day aka 5hrs. but IT WAS FUN!

i was a small girl playing with my musical box behind the luggage and my job is to slam the luggage and then start to act like a possessed person and ask them to play with me.

i received all sorts of funny treatment but it was totally worth it.

i was: poked by a wire, kicked by kailing, tortured with a balloon by idiot karen, slapped by someone, patted on my head like a dog -.-

and someone was like" eh if you small girl, your voice should be higher. "and some other guy was damn scared that he gave me and eunice his fishball and muffin and beg us not to touch him. LOL. another said my makeup was cool. o.o

and some retards were like : eh dont touch my leg, my leg is hairy" hahahahaha. wts.

i was in the room for so long that the scary background music became so boring.

some people felt that it was cool and really scary but some thought that it was quite crap, esp the boys.

for girls, they were damn screamy, even before they enter the room they alr started screaming, but the boys were like quite -.- i didnt know what do with them, i cant pull them or touch them so its like quite awkward.

but overall, i thought i think that the haunted hotel was a huge hit. but i think that once is enough.

RGSOFTBALL HAUNTED H(ot)ELL FTW! ♥

2010-04-08T00:24:00.004+09:00

i always have problems starting a post. ah.

so anyway, i cant wait for ORA cause softball is doing haunted hotel. :) :) how cool is it. must come visit. its really cool.

i think i just wasted my -go-home-early day. i totally slept for 2+hours. but i did a fair bit of maths and didnt do physics :/ i must make it up tmr.

and now im really really into SHINee!!! ♥

after watching hello baby. i fell in love with yoogeun and SHINee. haha. i like jonghyun!!!!

i think the reason why i prefer kpop korean bands rather than hollywood stars is because korean people are funny and they often do shows like that. while hollywood stars dont. and i always like a band after watching their shows. :) like how i liked suju after ehb.

and i think that korea is geographically closer than america? so i guess it feels more real. ah idk.

but i like SHINee but super junior still no1. :)

ah i miss hello baby! ):

2010-04-01T00:02:00.002+09:00

YAY EXAMS ARE OVER for now.
i totally screwed up my chinese :/ i wrote the words instead of numbers and i heard taht you will probably minus half the marks. LIKE WHAT? i minus marks for writing extra. ahhhh. stooops.
anyway chem and social studies is goood.
and i am damn happy with my gong han marks although i had this" oh shit im gonna die feeling"

todays april fools day joke was quite retarded. we did the white board thing 2 and at first was kinda funny but during math ms sito totally didnt care cause she knew our prank. but super lame la.

THE HOLS ARE HERE. thursday....friday....saturday....sunday... arh and soon it will be monday again. ):
ok so universal is cancelled. coz battle star is cancelled. rarh.

2010-03-27T23:35:00.003+09:00

i cant wait to go universal studios on thursday. i've been wanting to go since the start of time. hope wont kenna any accidents. :)
and i cant wait for post monday too. after the 3 papers, i will have(temporary) freedom. :)

but for now,i need to mug. ah im dying. i hardly have time to mug. kept busy the whole weekend. but actually im in no postition to use the word "busy" with only minimal duties of a mass dance captain and cca. compared to other people who take up third lang, leadership boards, tuitions and what not, im already considered very free. but i can never understand why they people take up so many commitments and keep themselves so busy and stressed leaving no time to take a breather. and when they are stressed, they complain. its your choice so live with it.
i rather choose freedom over fame. For me, the best thing is to go home everyday and have some time with my family, my shows and just stoning.

2010-03-24T13:26:00.002+09:00

its the 1st week of school and im already dying. ):

today is the sa day and its im home early. :) i think i screwed up geog big time. LIKE TOTALLY. and im not those kinda people who say they screw up and yet they still get damn high. for me, screw up really is MAJOR SCREW UP.
surprisingly, i have a better feeling about english then geog even though i mugged so hard for geog and i didnt even touch english.
today before english and geog paper, i prayed with huizhen, louisa, crystal and kimberly. its like the first time i prayed with my friends before an exam and i think praying makes me feel better. thank you Lord for putting peace in my heart. and when i prayed, suddenly 1 Peter 5:7 struck me and im like woah, good timing.

yea so now im gonna study chem :)

"cast all your anxieties unto the Lord because he cares for you"

2010-03-17T09:19:00.003+09:00

DADDDY WHY ARE YOU IN AUSTRALIA NOW?!?!

yesterday when i was about to start my geog aa then i realised that dad took the camera. i panicked like crap and he is only like gonna be back on sat and aa is due on mon. :O argh. i have no memory card and i cannot do anything. stoops. why you go take my camera and leave for autralia. now my geog aa is screwed.

anyway thank you crystal for lending me your thumbdrive. ♥ i owe you one. :)

aaahhh. homework homework homework. it didnt struck me that i had homework to complete until last night. i had been slacking on monday and tuesday. gosh im such an idiot. now i need to chiong commonwealth and geog aa and geog revision.
commonwealth is bleh. 1200 words? whatthecrap. there's a limit to how much i can crap. 1200? its way pass my limits. i dont get it, its not like i'll ever win anything...why must i write?

2010-03-14T22:12:00.005+09:00

Today was the second day of SRCs. I got to play my first game against nan hua. Ching yee was deciding who to put for the game, then coach was like: mix la, play for experience, lost nvr mind one then he said u can put people like michelle. I stand down there stunned. Did I hear correctly or not. So i went to check the player line up and its the first time i saw my name in the 9. I was right field, last batter. Many things went through my head... excitement, happiness, fear and anxiety
I panicked a lot before the game but whem i realised coach not coming for the game so i calm down a little bit. Haha. Make mistakes a least i wont kenna scolded like crap. xD

When we fielded, this leftie batted a very nice pop fly ball which was obviously catchable but i think i too kan chiong then i missed by a wee bit. I faster go pick up and throw to emily but aiya too late.
Later when it reached my turn to bat i was super scared... Its like one against the whole world. And somemore it started with 1 ball 1 strike which made it worse. Yue zhen told me to bunt a good ball so im like ok i will try my best. The 1st pitch i thought it looked like a strike so i tried to bunt it but half way i realised it was too high but too late liao, it was a strike cause i swung at it. 2nd pitch i thought should i hit or not and i decded not to coz i thoughy maybe a ball and if i swing i will most likely swing at nothing. ah... but turned out to be a very nice strike so i gt striked out.
And this is the story of my first game. :)

Just like batting, life only presents you with a certain amount of chances. U could swing at it and make a very nice hit bringing you a long way or u could miss it and choose not to take it. All you got is 3 precious chances, either u hit it or you are striked out. We should make use of every opportunity that came our way and not let it slip by

EPIC LUNCH

2010-03-12T22:00:00.006+09:00

an unplanned lunch turned out to be super fun. oh man i had great fun lunching with crystal louisa and mel. bunch of retards man but it was super gayy.
i think it was louisa or crystal who suggested walking to shaw to save money so we were like "ok good idea." but later we found out that the 'short cut' suggested by mel was totally -.- it turned out to be super long and weird. but along the way we laughed like mad chickens.

and when we (finally) arrived at shaw, we ate at macs. louisa's braces wire broke so she was eating like a salvage? anyway its just messy and she realised that she was late for her CmPS meeting. so crystal wrote a excuse letter for her on a subway tissue -.-. super toot and then we sticked a mcdonald stamp over with chilli sauce. hahahah. super funny.

AH ♥ the retards.

now my left hand is hurting ): i am throwing wrongly. ahhh. this is so depressing.

its time to let go

2010-03-11T22:39:00.004+09:00

this week has been really really busy. ah i guess is the very bad planning of time thats why our there is a mad rush towards the end. esp from tuesday to last night/this morning. but im really very thankful to zann, huiyu, louisa and marie. thanks a million:)

LJ week is like the best week of the year so far. its quite slack and no lessons, no homework. :) somemore no school today. haha. camwhoring at rsaf is really fun. i suddenly found out that our classis aVERY VERY camwhore-ry class. like we are jumping from one plane to another, and saying "OMG LETS TAKE A PICTURE WITH THIS PLANE".
sad thing is that tmr is the end of lj, end of fun. after that is SAs. ):

lunched with kim and daya. epic convos. haha. and they bought me super junior posters. <3<3<3
that got me happy throughout the whole training :) but some PIECE OF THING got me annoyed by asking us to pack up. -.-

next week is SRCs. i cant wait. i think that the most memorable times i had last year was during SRCs @kallang. although the place was crap but being with batchies was really the best part la.cereals <3
hopefully i will get to play at the aes game?

2010-03-05T19:18:00.002+09:00

i jus came back from the ri bdiv finals. its so exciting to watch. some guy made 2 homeruns. like what? even making a homerun is so difficult for us, and yet he made 2. ahhhh...i feel so motivated to train hard and become champs next year.

today was super slack day. out of 5 blocks, only 2 block were lessons and we had 2 free blocks. haha. i brought my mac to school today supposedly for math pt but we ended up camwhoring like crap. haha. photo booth is so awesome. its like the 8th wonder of the world! :) i finally understand the why RaM classes camwhore like crap. its so fun.

cant wait for founders day tmr. some sec 2 girl will be singing haru haru. yayyyyy. kpop ftw!

its not over just yet

2010-02-26T22:10:00.004+09:00

its over for bdiv.
although i've never really experience what they are feeling right now, but im sure the feeling you get when you put your heart and soul into something you love, and what you get is nothing but a huge disappointment, sucks.

our batch had a batch talk today, and jocelyn told us that they let us down and mostly coach down so we should not let history repeat itself and we decided that we must hard work and strive towards winning nats next year. we are doing this because we want to win, we are doing this because we love softball, we are doing this for coach, we are doing this to prove that we are strong. WE ARE DOING THIS BECAUSE WE REALLY WANT IT AND WE ARE ONE. i really really really love softball and my batch. my batch is like a family to me. i feel super comfortable in cereals. your classmates change every 2 years but batchmates are there for your entire 4 years. CEREALS!♥
and i think that coach is really awesome cause he bears with our everything and continue believing that his girls are always the best and paying for our equipments from his own pocket despite how we've not really acted as a team and how we are always not giving our best during matches and training, how the school system sucks and how little he is paid,but he never abandoned us to find greener pastures .coach is the best. thank you coach for being our coach.
im suddenly so motivated to train and my goal is to get on the field at least once.

and 314 won class decor, it came to me as a surprise coz our class is like hmmm...idk how to say...just not the first prize material. everybody was woah our class like that also first arh. super funny. but i guess that winning this is really significant to 314 as its like our first thing that we won and it really shows that we can work well? but im really happy that we won. :)

2010-02-22T22:43:00.004+09:00

oh no. i havent done my homework ): this is so depressing. this is called ~~slacking~~ resting,
i agree with karen about one thing:

"no matter how many boring and depressing things happen in a day, there is sure to be at least one thing that made me laugh that day. And that one happy thing erases all the bad things that could ever happen."
-karen

i think that its really true. look on the bright side of life man!
things to complete:
1. Chinese worksheet.
2. study for maths ga
3. complete biozone
4. go moodle find out about tudong issue.

LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE ON LIFE. ITS ONLY 4 NOT 10 :) wow this so helpful.
rarh...mlia.

2010-02-20T08:57:00.004+09:00

screw rs. argh i hate rs ttm. like what??? as if its gonna be of any help when i grow up. now there is only me and mich in the group, we need 1 more person NOWWWW. at first theres like me, mich, amanda and reetz and and some stoops say that there can only be 3 in a group, like wth la. so in the end we ended up breaking up. and now we need to decide on a topic. rarhhhhh. im gonna kill someone soon!!!!

argh anyway schools been so boring doing the same things everyday and homework is gradually piling up. i am dying of excessive homework alr. stoops. ah i cant wait for march hols.

2010-02-17T18:07:00.004+09:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!

thanks guys for all the wishes either through sms, facebook letters, presents or in one way or another. you have been a part in making my birthday wonderful. thank you. i totally love my presents. esp the super junior photo thing!!!! (above is my favourite photo cause sungmin looks so cool! sungmin is the blue jacket one:D) and guess what spastic karen gave me? a spastic card and a packet of lays. o.o i almost fainted la. haha. super funny. but anyway thanks.

i realised that one wish from anyone really makes a difference. i shall start wishing people happy birthday from now! is it just me or the older i get, the less excited i feel on my birthday. i dont feel as excited and happy as i did on my 5th or 6th birthday.

my party yesterday was fail but i had fun though. i kenna pushed into the pool. -.- but oh well later we played ping pong and soccer. haha and sparklers ftw manzxc. reminds me of childhood. i totally enjoyed sparklers. makes me feel young again.

so now im 15th, i must act like 15.

2010-02-13T11:55:00.005+09:00

yay today is new years eve!!! this is so exciting. i've been waiting for cny to come since like the end of last year! new clothes and money! anyway, i think that our school is so stingy. its new year eve's eve and there is no half day. we still have to go to school as per normal and STUDY! ):

oh well. later me vic and yingjiao went back to fmps and met up with 6a'07. seems like the number of people that go back to fmps decreases by the year. and i received my suju album from ruijun! omg so cool!!!!! i love it ttm!!!! THANKS RUIJUN!

yesterday vic came over to sleep and we watched isf and full house the whole night. AWESOME! i miss watching my shows manzxczxc. i have been trying my best to abstain from watching the shows and now finally i get to watch. waiting for the people to sub more so i can watch. haha

later i'll be going shopping for new year clothes. yay. :)

so i wish you people happy new year. and going xi fa cai. enjoy the holiday before the crazy school term actually begin

2010-02-09T23:15:00.005+09:00

AHHH. im feeling happier now. :)

training is fun today. coz the sec1s are here for training! i realised that the sec1s all have low socks which is a good sign. but there is no leftys and they are all so small. ): gawsh. and i feel so proud that i can remember all their names :) but i bet by next training i will forget them all.

today i realised thatim starting to lose the momentum. i am starting to slack off. and i am feeling a little lost in some subjects alr. shit i need to FOCUS AND CONCENTRATE before its too late and i start drowning in the sea.

im so looking forward to the new year because its a long break(YES I NEED IT DESPERATELY), got money, and its my birthday! *hint hint*

2010-02-08T20:49:00.004+09:00

i think bob is coming. i feelso pms-sy. D:

someone talk to me. i feel like ranting and i dont wanna to rant to myself. i try my best to be nice and accept her but i cant do it. i reached my limit alr i tell you.

If I could punch you without getting in trouble, believe me, i would

pissed the whole day. i think im little over reacting but its all bob's fault. !@#$%!@#$%&

2010-02-06T21:43:00.003+09:00

CRAP! I THINK I AM MAD!!!!!
instead of complete the list of homework, here i am feeling like crying.
aiyoh. cannot. wth is wrong with me?!
listening to music makes me sad. i feel sad but im not sure why.
friends? homework? life? i think is a bit of everything. my life is in a mess.
i can do this.i can do this. i can do this.
yes you can michelle.

dear God,
please help me get through life and learn to deal with obstacles that come my way.
amen.

2010-02-06T20:23:00.005+09:00

shit i just realised that i have damn a lot of homework to be complete. i guess i was wrong about not feeling that pressure. rarh. crap shit. andi totally agree with the facebook that says:
Two days is not enough time for a weekend.
teachers give a hell lot of homework and expect us to complete in 2 days. HELLO. WEEKENDS ARE FOR BREAK! i cant work 7 days a week.

house prac today was fun! i didnt learn the whole dance and i felt so paiseh when we had to teach house comm. i like WHAT THE CRAP? I NVR LEARN THAN NEED TO TEACH. haha.
later we had a mass dance flash mob. haha we pretended to not know anything when the music came on and just randomly start dancing. and the rest of the mass dancecapts will join in. its so cool and funny! I LOVE IT!
the mass dance this year is fantastic. the song is reach for the stars by s club and the chereograph is so cool. ♥♥♥ so much better than last year and its so easy. haha so hsm-y. weee.
after house prac me ginteng and karen went for lunch. didnt really talk much la.

yea, so now i have to complete:
1) maths stats worksheet
2) 2 geog fas
3) write notes to triangles
4) read physics txtbk
5) read geog txtbk
6) file my stuff

all these within ard 36h. fml.

2010-02-05T22:07:00.003+09:00

i just realised that i reached my 400th post on my previous post. lol random.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINTENG! ILY! ♥

i gave her a self made photoframe and i am super proud of it. my 2h of hardwork turned out nice!

nothing much happen in school la. just that maths pt is shit. our group is in deep deep shit.

during rs block yesterday, me karen ginteng and bowling talked. its quite good since we havent talked for a long while. tmr go for lunch must talk. i feel so bottled up. cheer up bowling, "at the end of every tunnel there will be light" just smile. the sudden realisation that in sec3, people are starting to falter, scares me.but i will press on cos im trading my sorrows for the joy of the lord.

2010-02-03T22:29:00.004+09:00

Today something not so pleasant happen in class. Although i dont know what really happen, but what joeline said was really true and i am partially guilty of it. i know that it not right but sometimes i cant help it and i am trying my best. Somehow i feel very bad about it and when joe cried...it really made me want to do smth abt it. From tmr, i will do my best to fix it and i will do it because it comes from my heart and not because of any other thing. Math lesson tmr is a good chance to show love. Im sorry for not treating you like a friend.
And today, i realised joe is actually a very nice person:)

I will HER a chance and myself a chance.

Love your neighbour as yourself.

2010-02-01T23:04:00.005+09:00

happy birthday felly!

i have been damn busy the whole weekend. someone save me.
sat: house prac, tuition and go auntie koon sin's house
sun: church and youth outing
so far school's been monotonous. and its only been 5 weeks? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE SEC3? but i havent felt the pressure YET. there's nothing really fun about class thats worth blogging about . argh. i think its too dead. i hope this is only because we are not used to each other and not because we are really too peaceful. cant wait for the cny hols. i need a break from school.
half a term has gone by. siannnn. time passes so slowly ): only watching super junior videos and listening to korean songs can make me happy :)
SUPER JUNIOR♥♥ RYEOWOOK♥

and i realise that i can actually do without a handphone for 2 days. haha. left it in sandra's car without knowing and i survive the weekend with no probs at all. technology isnt everything. but music is everything. without my ipod, i will seriously die arh.

reflection for the week:
1. save more money
2. dont gradually start to slack
3. read the bible daily.

Chair is not a chaise

2010-01-29T22:39:00.003+09:00

Yes. My com is working again. School's been meh... these few days. Nothing very interesting happened. Actually something happened. Haha. Damn embarrassing.
Last week during rs, we were asked define what is a chaise. Then i go write:
" a chair is a chair, a chaise is a chaise. A chair is not a chaise, a chaise is not a chair." thinking that dont need to hand it up. And i tink weiqi marked me 200/100 and go put excellent with many stars... And guess what... I handed up forgeting abt it and yesterday my paper was shown to the whole level. At first i didnt know it was mine... Then at first i saw the 200/100. Then i say wah why so familiar one. I think my paper also have smth like tt one. Later mr ow go read out my paper. Then i was like omg! Its my paper!!!. Walao chao embarrassing la. And i didnt dare own up. Bt today i confessed to mr ow and he was super shocked ad he said: michelle i will remember this forever. Jokingly. Haha. I learny lesson alr: to pay more attention during rs.
Aim: upgrade into hall of fame! :)

And today is the first time someone said i am hardworking. Gosh i feel damn happy!!!! Haha. First time ah!!!! Lol... Yeaaaaaa.

Anyway, happy birthday AWE(some) wan li and daddy and adam lambert! Haha.
Aweawe... Grow up and stop being lame and jiayou for pitching. Number 2 pitcher!( ive given the number 1 title to kow, haha) hope u enjoyed our cool morning surprise:)

2010-01-27T23:29:00.005+09:00

Gawsh... I feel so damn pathetic. My com broke down D: and i have to resort to blogging on my ipod. Life without com sucks. Ipod is running low in batt alr arh. Shit.

Anyway, i love xenia. Xenia is so fun to bully arh. It was super funny during career ed. All the buther sheets were filled with xenia all over. Ahaha. I am starting fall in love with 314. Last time i use to be only fitting in, but now i can fit in WELL. :) i can be the way i was in 204. Ahh it feels so great to be open...314 is really wonderful class although we are too peaceful at times. Lol. And besides the pressure of being a sec3 still hasnt really begun(at least for me), i can still understand stuff but its not for long la. so im enjoying it. And i feel so nerd copying notes... But note copying makes me happy coz my notes are neat and pretty :)
Oh btw Our class theme is cool. Watch out ppl.314 is gonna get the prize for best class decor

We lost the match yesterday to peicai 5-8. But its ok. Bdiv still rule! Jyjy for tuesday's match.

Ok i go watch american idol. PANTS ON THE GROUND!!!!

2010-01-23T10:38:00.003+09:00

something happened in school this week and it has been very the atmosphere has been very solemn the past week. although i dont personally know her but i heard about her greatness. its really a pity. but i hope that where ever she is now, she will be happy and we should be happy for her.
cheer up christine,eunice,kelly and whoever that were touched by her.
rest in peace.

I find it kind of scary. Last year, 3 of my friends' close friends passed away and i always think that it will come to me someday soon. Although this isnt exactly a close friend, i hope a close friend of mine wont die.
this incident made me think that people come and go easily. you can be here today and gone tomorrow. and sometimes i wonder what would people's reaction be when im gone and what people will remember me for. perhaps this help me learn the importance and living every single day of your life to the maximum and

just be yourself. life is too short to be anyone else.

Matthew 5:4
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

OH BEE ASS

2010-01-16T11:05:00.003+09:00

OBS was awesome but once is enough. the 5day really flew past. before you know it, its time to leave. i really thank God that i had this chance to be in OBS instead of somewhere else, cause its a wonderful experience i will never ever forget.

ps. its ok if you dont read this long post cause its for my memory's sake.

day 1

I was at first reluctant to go obs because i saw samuel chaota face and i was very sure i did not want that 5 days later.
anyway, my group was called AMUNDSEN!♥ hong laoshi didnt know how to pronounce it so she went like " ah-bu-san". LOL. then when the instructor, cecilia, told us we were called amundsen, we're all laughing like shit.
we ferryed from punggol to camp 2.
actually day 1 was quite sian since it was administrative stuff all that. by the end of the day, i was alr tired and exhausted. i guess it was tough being in a new environment and doing new things. we packed our bags for expedition for tuesday to thursday. But we got to cook our own dinner and pitched our tents. i think its really amazing how the same things you do at home like cooking can also be done in nature without technology.
at night, we camped at camp 2. i slept with shuying, zhuoning and wanyi.

day 2

Early in the morning, we woke up and had to carry our 10+kg bag pack and trek to camp 1. omg i really felt like dying.we finally arrived at camp 1. omg, compared to camp 2, camp1 was really heaven. so huge. there was a swimming pool, rockwalls and stuff. the toilets were much cleaner. so after lunch, we was taught how to belay and the basics. later we rock climbed! this rock climbing was a little different because we had to climb in pairs and there was the bungee cord that links us together. i climbed with weiqi and we made it to the top with much perserverance and determination. it wasnt easy to climb because sometimes we got into each others path. but during this activity, i really could sense the start of the bond in 314. we cheered one another and even though some of us were afraid and wanted to give up, we supported and encouraged one another despite knowing each other for barely a week. it was really very heart warming.
In the afternoon we had this kayaking dry run where we were taught to capsize and the basics of paddling. i took the same kayak as xining and kailing. and later we had a pontoon(sp?) jump whichwas a mini version on jetty jump. super fun. but a bit scary cause i did not expect to sink in so deep. but its was fun fun fun.
that night we didnt need to cook cause there was canteen food. super awesome manzxczxc.
and we rested for a night in some forest.

day 3

we started off our land expedition! first time we did our own navigation and stuff. trekking was seriously no joke. we had to carry our 10+kg bagpack and trek about 13km plus the heat was killing. it was really crazy. at the start, we trek and most of us had absolutely no idea where we are going, we just followed and we got lost a few times. but we never complained or give up. joeline kept encouraging us which really which lots. sometimes i really felt like giving up and resting. but i couldnt cause i really wanted to continue and not let amundsen down. in the end we managed to arrive to meet armstrong. they were damn fast, they reached like 1h before us. we later we were supposed to reach the campsite by playing this game where we had to stand in a circle and trhow the pebble in your right hand to the person on your left while you catch the pebble from your friend on the left withouting dropping for 3 consecutive times. it may look simple but to 314, its not. we took 2.5h doing that activity but it the end we still did not manage to complete the task. for me, i was kinda disappointed yet encouraged. disappointed because we were so close to getting 3 throws but we always fail. no matter how hard we wanted to succeed, it just slipped past our fingers.
encouraged because no matter how long we stood, no one faltered. and we did not blame each other. we have not been the fastest class to complete, but we have been bonded much more.
at night we did this activity where we had to sleep on each others tummy and feel each others breathing and haizu told as a very touching story. it helped alot.

day 4

we started off early in the morning kayaking back to camp 2. it was really fun. i was at the back and xining was in the centre and kailing in front. i am so proud of chengbus and aia course we managed to arrive at camp 2 with an amazing timing of 4.5 hours. usually it takes 7 plus hours but 4.5h is really something. :)
despite the choppy seas and the the strong winds. we did it. we had to paddle like crazy cause the wind keep blowing us to the fence.
because we managed to reach early, WE GOT TO JETTY JUMP! it was really cool ok. at first when i stepped onto the platform, i was damn scared when i looked down it looked so far below. but idk why when i said 314, i love you. i didnt feel as scared. then i closed my eyes and jump. i was in mid air for super long la. then i was like eh why still never reach yet. feels damn scary. but it was so fun when i finally touched the water. although a few of us were scared. but some managed to conquer their fears. i really really think that they are very courageous to overcome their fears. good job guys!

day 5

when i woke up it was super cold, we got back our valuables and got our certs. finally there our the grand finale. thank God we were 314 so we were like the 2nd last class to perform. me and louisa were at the back desperately trying to salvage the performance and trying to ally with 313 and 315 to get them to cheer for us no matter what. in the end, althogh our performance was quite fail. but still, we completed it as a class:) it was time to go back and when we took the boat back, we were all complaining how obs wasnt long enough.

i have woken up from the best dream of my life and ive stepped back into reality. back to homework and training. they must not be the funnest things to do but i will and i can do it. i hope i will use what i learn to become a better person.
i really thank God for OBS. I was almost not allowed to go. but im so glad i did. friendships were forged and i became a much stronger person than i was. the reflections that we did really helped me think about stuff. i wanna ceci~~lia~~gull and ~~hai~~birdzoo for the awesome experience and their guidance. haizu is really really great at telling stories and making us think and reflect. thank you INSTRUCTORS. im sure obs brought everybody a very memorable experience.

"There's something about OBS that stays with you for life"
precious memories

gossip girls. xoxo.

2010-01-09T18:00:00.004+09:00

after house prac,went for lunch with karen. omg amazing. we talked for 2h straight without awkwardness. more than i ever talked to her last year. yesh. i must conquer my fear of awkwardness. i felt so comfortable. and karen, im so honoured to be the first ever ONE person you ever talked to for 2 hours straight.hahaha.HONOURED. :)

it was really interesting and i thought about loads of stuff after that. thanks.

gotta pack for obs before its too late.

2010-01-08T23:23:00.002+09:00

today was an especially nice day. first, its a slack day with only 3 lessons. next we had class bonding during free block. haha. all cat and mouse game, mrt game, and the mafia game. haha joeline is super funny. "sheryl died because she got stab....in the back....by a backstabber." LOL.
before taking mug shots, we had our very first class lunch at far east. :)although its kinda awkward, but still...CLASS LUNCH LEH.
then training was not really hardcore. :)

Although i started off the year not really enjoying it coz sometimes(or rather most of the time)the class in really too inactive and too "peaceful" and i kinda miss 204. i suddenly get a good feeling about 314 after today, and we are gonna pwn every other class manzxczxc.

so yea...looking forward to obs and an awesome time of bonding!

2010-01-06T21:09:00.002+09:00

i feel damn lousy today. ):
its back to sqaure one.

bad girl :)

2010-01-05T20:05:00.002+09:00

my first day as a sec 3 is uh quite ok. i made a lot of new friends. and now my desk mate is a retarded person joeline. hahahhaha. omg im so gonna die for this whole term. :/
but in front of me is kailing, huizhen and louisa. so i guess is gonna be quite fun. :)
and i realised a lot of the 314 ppl are psls. damn scary eh.

and stupid louisa keeps wanting me to become chair. o.o
i think my ft and clet arent too bad la. i hope the same goes for the rest of the teachers. cant wait for tmr! ~

ALL THE SINGLE LADIES~!

2010-01-03T20:05:00.005+09:00

yesterday went after house comme meeting, went to watch alvin with karen and suyun. OMG the show is damn nice. ok not really. but its super cute and funny. its kinda like high school musical 2 though where zac abandons the vanessa for something. aiya you understand what i mean la. super funny the chippettes were cute too. THEY ARE NOT TRANS.
all the single ladiesssss~

i just found out my teachers for sec3. im starting to hate 2010 alr.pfft. my ft is a chinese teacher AGAIN. like wth?! 3 yrs in a row. and from past yrs experience, having a chinese teacher as ft is not a good idea. on the brighter side, VIC AND MY MOTTO IS :NOTHING IS WORSE THEN Z_ _ _ _. (person not identified to protect its identity.) go figure out yourself. awesome yea? haha. i hope this is true or my life is totally ruined. and i cant regconise like almost half the teachers who are gonna teach me. gawsh. this sucks. i hope friends will make school better.

on a brighter note, while all you little toots are chionging your holiday homework, i can slack. not because i finished mine, its simply because I HAVE NONE! :):) plus i have an extra holiday tmr for the yr1s orietation. awesome eh? I SO LOVE MY SCHOOL.

2010.

2010-01-01T12:36:00.006+09:00

Its 2010, means school is starting like in a few days time. damn, im so not prepared for this.

time for reflections and setting my resolutions, hopefully i will keep to them.

2009:
-it went ridiculously fast. but it was really an eventful year. it was last year that i really grew like as a person. many things that i nvr really gave a thought about, i did last year. i learnt to pick myself up from failures reflect on them and then must take actions.
-Although my grades did improve, i dont think i did well enough. i must do better this year...
-met people which showed me what friends are for and im really really grateful to them. 204 have been the bestest class ever. thanks for everything. but we're all gonna move on so bye.
-i also grew closer to God through mission trip and i really learnt a lot from the trip. giving is really better then receiviong because i really gained happiness and laughter from giving.
-my obsession for super junior will still remain in 2010 :)

2010:
-yesterday ariella told me then you can be in many cliques in your life, but there has to be one 1 that makes you comfortable and the want to stay in it forever. she found it. so i hope that this year i will find the the one she is talking about.
-no more 204'09, its 314'10 :)
-responsibilities is getting more and more but i hope i will be able to cope and still do well in studies. i need to be more hardworking. no more procrastinations.
-i also hope that i will not fight with julian. i am already trying my best to mend the relationship. so i really really hope that fighting will minimise.
-keep a closer relationship with God. i must read the bible daily. and pray to Him. i need Him.
-it would also be good if i become more independent and not rely on people so much, i need to learn to not be taken advantage of too. NO I CANNOT BE SOFT ANYMORE. change for the better.
-keep my super junior obsession.

so i hope that 2010 will be a good year.

BTW ITS SUNGMIN'S BDAY TODAY. HAHA.

light and darkness

2010-01-01T12:18:00.003+09:00

youth camp was fun:)
omg dragonboating was awesome. we get to attack the people from the other boat with the paddle. we also had this mini race and we won. wooohooo.
dinner was at some changi beach club. wah the place is super ulu. BUT the fooood is nice. i took like many many servings la. esp the chicken.

midnight cycling is (L)(L) highlight of the camp. our team started off like quite fast but later lag behind coz 2 ppl cant cycle and the bikes keep breaking down. toran couldnt cycle so at first he crashed into a tree and then he decided to walk the whole way which was about 17km? haha. then he said walking" was so much safer" then a few seconds later he tripped over his bike and fell. lol.
there was this stretch of road which was very straight so i thought wah damn nice to chiong but then after cycling for 30min were still cycling on the same stretch of road. but then later toran "retired" coz he still had like 10km more to run. hahaha.omg we cycled for 4hours straight and the stupid seat keep rubbing against my ass. ruijun is right for once CYCLING TAKES AWAY YOUR VIRGINITY. LOL.

later went to ariella's house to sleep before going to church. church was fun with all the actions and singing of bubbling joy. and again as usual, when its midnight, the pastor was still preaching. no countdown, nothing. we ownself do our countdown.-.-

anyway, its 2010. i shall post about my resolutions and stuff later.

the food is niceee.

2009-12-28T16:43:00.006+09:00

busy these few days man.

SATURDAY: i went to delia's house for dinner. omg her house is so cool. its like landed property yet it is like together. aiya idk how to explain la. but its just cool. the food is niceeee. after carolling, we got bored so we ended up painting our nails like the whole time. o.o and guess what ARE(yes, is are not is) the colours of my nails? HOT PINK AND LIGHT BLUE!
gosh. i dont think you will ever hear me saying this but, they are suprisingly nice. :)

SUNDAY: promotion sunday. our whole cell got ties from alvin, eunice and shawn. :) i like mine coz it went well with my shirt. its black and red stripes. AWESOME.
BUT...alvin and euice are no longer gonna be our cell leaders D: D: D:rawr.

later i went for nic's bday party. we went to this super cool jap place called nihon mura to eat. omg i ate damn a lot coz the food is niceee :) SUSHI IS THE BEST. i took like 7 plates of it from the conveyor belt. and i was too full to walk alr. meanwhile, ariella and esther were debating about whose school has a reputation for les. hahah. it was damn funny.
the waiter go spill f&n grape on my baggg. eh i just wash one leh. bt im nice enough to for give BUT i wont forget. haha jkjk. later we walked across to plaza sing to go daiso. haha. i wanna buy the whole shop man. there so many things there that i wanttt. i shall include that in the letter to santa next year. later we went arcade to play daytona, silent hill and basketball= FUN!

im looking forward to camp and watchnight service. camp is gonna be damn fun with dragonboating and overnight cycling and dinner coz the food is niceeee. wooohooo.

Joy To The World

2009-12-25T22:02:00.005+09:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

today was the day Jesus christ came to this world to save us and thank you Lord for that. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS.

there was church service in the morning. the skits and dramas were entertaining. and i finally saw alvin and eunice! haha. i also received a lot of presents from unexpected ppl. haha. thank you very much . i will bring the gifts on sunday :)

i just came back from some gathering. the place is damn ulu. like behind kovan mrt? there is this guycalled matthew plays the organ damn well. he can play the gatsby song and the pirates of the carribean song. hand and leg co ordination is omg pro. i'm inspired to continue playing piano.
overall the thing is quite fun. :)

there's another gathering tmr and esna baptism thing. haha. cant wait.

2009-12-24T22:36:00.003+09:00

OMG I HEARD THE SUPER JUNIOR IS FACING THE RISK OF DISBANDING.
noooooo.

6(leeteuk, yesung, kangin,dongae, eunhyuk, hankyung) of the 13 members are filing lawsuits against SME. stupid sme la. i want suepr junior. no disband!

bleh. its gonna be christmas and this is happening. crap arh.

oh this reminds me, i need to write christmas cards and WONGRUIJUN, REMEMBER ME SUJU ALBUM!

2009-12-24T15:42:00.006+09:00

sentosa was ok. quite fun. i went with some of the 6a ppl( vic ruijun xiyuan zuowei lungs ryan boyu mark wig)

it was my first time was a tandem bike. at first i rented the single bike but zuowei and mark couldnt start up, so me and ruijun took it instead. haha. and aquaman couldnt ride the bike. lol. but at the end of the 1h i think he could alr arh.
riding the bike with ruijun was heart attack arh she go chao fast down the slope, then i keep shouting "brake brake!" she dont care me. later she go pao qi me for boyu! i had to take boyu's extra high bike and i could ride coz of my height. -.- i tried placing my butt on the seat but then i cant coz my legs cant touch the ground. o.o

then later they buried me and zuowei in the sand. haha. omg so cool. i didnt know like the sand can be so heavy one.then later xiyuan left early and then we wanted to play with the loogee or luge wtv...but damn ex arh so in the end we went back to vivo.

today is christmas eve so i wish everybody

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

SANTA PLEASE REMEMBER ME!!!

GOSH, SCHOOL IS STARTING IN A WEEK AND A HALF'S TIME. I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING FRUITFUL. ):

NEW MOON

2009-12-22T22:48:00.009+09:00

i just watched newmoon online at vic's hse. its quite nice? my first contact with twilight. haha. bella is stupid to choose edward. jacob better lor. edward is omg so shit. and did i mention this? THE ENDING TOTALLY SUCK TTM! like so anti-climatic. -.-

something something...
-long awkward pause-
bella, will you marry me?
THE END

like wts? i very expecting something to happen you know, like bella to say: "OMG NO, YOU SUCK." but no! it ended. toooot la.

DEAR SANTA,

I want a super junior album and a ticket to cambodia! please please please please do deliver it by friday morning. you can just leave it at the door. IM WAITING! :)

with much love♥,
michelle

MIXED UP

2009-12-20T21:42:00.004+09:00

THANKS GINTENG FOR THE AWEEEESSSSSOOOME LETTER!!!!
I WAS CLOSE TO TEARING.):

just when i thought the feeling for 204 was gone, then on friday during the results of class allocation, feeling was back again...stronger then before. suddenly there are so many things i miss, so many people i miss. after checking my class allocation, i went to find the gang's classes but sadly none was in 314 and i was like sadsadsad..and just yesterday, i was listening to my ipod on the mrt, keeping on playing songs that would remind me of 204. like daoxiang reminds me of ginteng, crush reminds me of mugging sessions and boom boompow reminds me of mel.
and i cant go to class outing ):

gawsh.im having mixed feelings now. im excited about 314 and predicting who am i gonna fit in with, but at the same time, i cant really let go.

314

2009-12-18T21:36:00.002+09:00

314'10!

CLASS ALLOCATIONS ARE OUT. been waiting for this day like since the start of the hols. woohooo. but it feels weird thinking that im in sec 3 next year and im in this class called 314. and the feeling that im no longer in 204 has just sunken in.
thankGod that weiqi, xining, felly and cheryl are in my class next year :) and i know like quite a lot of other people too. but the sad thing is most of the gang is not in my class and no batchies. ): oh well. i can always make new friends. looking forward to 2010!

CAMBODIA

2009-12-17T14:19:00.009+09:00

CAMBODIA IS AWESOME TTM!!! I WILL BE BACK NEXT YEAR!

this is like the first time i didnt wish to be back from an overseas trip. the 7 days trip is really wonderful. thankyou Lord for this opportunity to be in cambodia.

on the plane i was sitting next to aaron and delia. then i had the red hoodie while aaron had the blue and delia had the green. so when we slept we looked like the ppgs! hahah.

although there was a fair share of pissy moments with some people and some stuff, we had wild and crazy times too. on the bus to the school, we went crazy singing songs so we called ourselves the HSMRB aka High School Musical Refugee Bus.haha. we also had midnight chachabo. with the "wa ka li gong" and "na si wa wu zi ba ban".LOL. and carol-jie with the guest performance! hahaha damn epic. and dinner at mckings was really awesome.coz ariella was high on sprite or smth and she started spouting nonsense which was damn hilarious.

there were times that i cried as well. when grace was giving her testimony, i felt like crying. haha. and yesterday when we were leaving cambodia, i thought i wouldnt cry but i really miss tity and rebecca and virort and many other kids and i cried. in fact, i cried more than i did during 204 farewell. way more. i felt more emotional yesterday. i thought that the 1 week friendship forged was like stronger than a year's relationship. although we didnt spend a lot of times together but i received many presents from the kids. i felt damn touched la. there is this difference when im with the cambodian kids and the powerkids kids. in powerkids, i think that i enjoyed the kids only because they are adorable but with the cambodian kids, its more than just them being cute, is like their love for you and that they treasure you a lot that kind of thing. okay, i dunno how to explain this.

teaching the kids was really fun although i was kinda nervous. "CHER MICHELLE!" HAHAHAHA. but i learnt many things along the way and gained more confidence. i made a lot of new friends. :) and teaching the kids streamers for worship workshop is fun. although at first they didnt know how to do but like 30mins before, we came out with some funny sounds to help them remember,and they did. praise the Lord. the performance was really good. and im really surprised that some of the kids were into kpop they were singing to ring ding dong and they watch BOF and they know who dbsk and shinee and suju are. so cool eh.

rebecca!(L) and delia made a cambodian boyfriend. the cambodian fling. hahaha.

shopping was fun!!! i bought a lot of stuff and surprisingly i didnt overshoot my budget. yea man!\m/ i am damn happy with my "harvest".

overall, i think that this trip was an amazing experience. and i thank you God for this opportunity to be able to spread His word. although there are things you have to sacrifice but what i gain was more than what i sacrificed. i hope that the kids will really be impacted positively and walk with God. this trip is like once in a lifetime and I WILL BE BACK NEXT YEAR!

[edit] photos on facebook. omg my inbox is flooded.[/edit]

2009-12-10T10:32:00.002+09:00

im going to the airport in around 4 hours time. weeee. so exciting. :) better make sure i pack my stuff. OH AND I BOUGHT LOADS OF SWEETS. DORM PARTY!!!!

I think im gonna miss my computer and other stuff a lot. ):but probably in cambodia i will forget about it la.
going to cambodia, i dont have much to expect cos i dunno what to expect. buti i hope that when i come back, im a changed person. i hope that we will benefit from this trip, but more importantly i hope cambodian kids will benefit. i love working with kiddos!

bye~!

2009-12-08T10:50:00.002+09:00

yesterday, i went out with vic,kim,celine,ginteng,weiqi and karen.
my bowling skill wasnt too bad. my average was better than usual. but still not like very good la.
kim is like kuku one. 2 double strike in a game=4 strikes. :O walao. and before that she had a tummy ache.

later we went to arcade. i didnt play coz i really had no money left. all my savings from the past week was depleted in a day. ):
but i played para para coz it was damn worth it and its too fun not to be played. and the way ginteng plays crazy taxi is epic.

so anyway after we all left. me vic and kim wanted to take bus home. but the opposite stop got no 106. so we walked and walked and walked just to find a non existent bus stop with 106. stupid vic lead us in the wrong direction. when we finally found a stop with 106, that was like the terminal stop. o.o and we made one big round and finally made it to the mrt. yes mrt. we could have taken that from the start la.

anyway...im not taking off my braces until 28dec ): they postponed it! argh! i want braces off! bahh.

2009-12-06T19:54:00.002+09:00

im starting to pack for mission trip! i cant waitttt. 4 more days and cambodia, here i am! me and ariella are most probably going there like an hour earlier to play at the airport. hahaha. fun fun fun.

i am so gonna shop for sweets and stuff to keep me going for the trip. i bet my food is gonna be more than my clothes.

and i hate this you know. im not fully recovered. ): I CANT GO FOR TRAINING ON TUESDAY! like i am going to miss training for 2 whole weeks. how shit is that la. coach is gonna keeeel me. and maybe i cant go for bowling tmr. nonsense la. SUCKSSS.

packing is fun!!!!! lalala. i cant wait for cambodia mission trip!

2009-12-04T15:14:00.002+09:00

i am feeling bored right now. i havent been for training this whole week coz of the stupid sore thraot and runny nose plus fever. i miss training!
i cant breathe right now. there is something stuck in my mouth and my nose is blocked. i am gasping for air like some fish. but at least when i use tissue to blow my nose i dont to do it the way ginteng does it.she pluck 3 pieces at the time and blow once into it and it goes into the bin. i recycle mine. :) SAVE MOTHER EARTH!

i need to get well soon or i cant go cambodia! i want go cambodiaaaaa. i cant wait. 6 more dayyys!

ok i going to watch attack on the pin up boys. damn funny. esp ryeowook. he look chao toot.

SUPER JUNIOR!

2009-11-30T22:14:00.006+09:00

today wasnt really exciting or anything. just mundane la. but actually this is the first time since like a long while i can wake up at my own time and be at home all day. today i just suju-ed the whole day. haha.

and i realised that my craze over suju started like damn late can. i read charis and sheree's blog and i found that like exactly 1 yr ago they were alr suju crazy, and i just started a few weeks ago. -.- stalking their blogs to find out more abt suju. lol. i ran out of suju vids to watch le. i keep rewatching them until i can memorise. FIND ME MORE VIDS!

oh well. SUJU hwaiting!!!! ss2 is not coming to singapore. ): WHY???!!!!
and my goal is to learn marry u on the piano. i must master it!!!
oh probably the next thing i will master is korean language! ha.
i only know babo and sarang hae! and a few others.

2009-11-29T08:09:00.002+09:00

yay back from children's camp. i think yesterday was the awesomest day so far since the holidays started.

i came with jolie at around 8.30. then we stoned a whiel and worship started. morning worship was ok. debrief was damn funny lah. later we went to play ultimate frisbee. i suck. then we played for a while then i think jeremy(?) threw it into someone's house. haha. but we nvr got it back.

after the very nice pizza lunch, we played silent heart attack the version where if you get 1 set you do an action and everybody must follow. last people up one level. and cant talk to higher level. then i kenna trick by amos twice. but ha! i had my revenge. so in the end i was lvl 6.

then a few of us went to nearby to play l4d! omg fun. but me and ariella sucked. i at first blur blur one. and my hand eye coordination sucked. even after i understood the game, i still cant control ): always kenna stuck in the corner one.

went back to play poker and had dinner. and then was night worship. NIGHT WORSHIP ROCKED! \m/ i loved it alot. me and ranice had so much fun doing the action and she told me the ultimate secret. :)
i (L)(L)(L)(L)(L) night worship. mingling with kids and stuff were really awesome. the mood super high.

worshipping with the kids was even better then youth worship. somewhow it seemed so much more then just the usual singing and dancing to songs during youth. i wanna do this again. seeing the kids smile make me smile too.

2009-11-27T23:58:00.005+09:00

ariella's party is fun fun fun! me and dominique were late cause met at bukit batok mrt late and plus the fact that we got off the bus too early and we walked like 3 stops to save money. -.-
playing water bomb pwns man. and the guards are stupid. we wetted the condo floor so the guard came and then she made us clean the floor. everybody was like so quiet then suddenly jelaine was like:"the water evaporates, you learn that in science...right?" omg i was like shocked la. she actually dare to rebutt. and hui er resembles heather. later we played whacko.haha damn funny. and i love the dress nic made ariella during project runway. its nice and stupid made her boob implants go from a to cc cup. lol. her boobs looked more like tumour. LOL.

It was nice knowing ariella's friends and breanna. :) hahaha. oh i love the homemade ice cream cake. yummmmmyyyy.

recenlt, i've have been so caught up in excessive fangirling and overflooding of activities that i sometimes lose myself. i need to stop and find me back.
and randomly, BABO is my new favourite word.
"nonononono HA!"

as much as i try to love you, i cant. you just piss me off everytime. i put up with all your nonsense but you just go overboard. i am trying my best to make peace. and im sorry if i hurt you. but dont push the limits.

2009-11-25T18:10:00.003+09:00

ok ltm's post just now SUCKED. want better post go my blog. (:

http://vicviclim.blogspot.com

ah that one the post super swee. (:

♥ Vic Lim.

2009-11-25T17:55:00.006+09:00

yay i am back from 6a chalet. :) very fun! but was kinda short.

bussed to imm and then shop for bottles of drinks(like 12?)
then we checked in first thing...
we did was to go out and play bball. hahaha.
then we went to go bowling! yea man!

got all sorts of funny names like felicia no chin(ryan), sex bomb(jinhan), mogu no tou, kimchi etc. damn gay. mine was ninety years old. -.-

my score was damn shit la. both games started off with spares...den long kang all the way. but heng im not the last :)

dinner at cafe cartel. me and kim decided to play the coke thing from intimate note. super fail la. nvr laugh one. but somehow i cant do with kim, i look into her eyes then i laugh. i think her eyes too gay liao and omg she looks like ryeowook!

mr seah's car ride was damn fun!! i love his driving skills man.swee. even when he is not at his usual speed, i thought is like walao damn fast can.

it was mgt bday. so we bought him cakes. ying jiao took out the whip cream and started playing. later i take the whip cream from ying jiao and ambushed kwek. awesome. i wanted to do the same to ryan but he go hide in the toilet and when he came out he shuff the mop in my face. idiot.

then later watch john tucker must die. damn funny esp the g string part.

i gambled a little and then dunno dunno what happen and i fell asleep.but can hear people talking talking.
morning go training liao.

went crazy during training. i couldnt stay awake. but later ok liao. but training was a bit pointless. nvr do anything one lor.

ON A RANDOM NOTE...I LOVE SUJU TTM!!!!! I TAKE BACK MY WORD THAT I DONT FANGIRL. I LOVEEE SUJU. RYEOWOOK!HEECHUL!SUNGMIN!

2009-11-23T03:52:00.002+09:00

YES! I FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING THE 13eps of ehb. super junior! and guess whats the time now? 2.53am. amazing. i never stayed up so late to watch something. gosh. its addictive. i shall find more vids to watch when i wake up.

chalet in 8h time. cant waittttttt.

2009-11-22T23:27:00.002+09:00

busy-ness is over.
concert ytd was fun! fun! fun! stage make up sucks. they go put damn a lot and they screwed up my hair. ): my hair was literally BOOMZ. but oh well its fun. i forgot one part of hero and but nvm la. on the whole, its quite good. :)

sleepover at ariella's house and went to church this morning. omg i think we screwed up pk worship, really. but we are new la. i hope next time well be better. i need to learn to be more not stage fright. and INTERACT MORE!

I CANT WAIT FOR 6A CHALET TMR! WOOOOO~
go watch ehb ep8 5/5. damn niceeeeeee. haha
i <3 suju!