today was SA day 2.
bio went pretty well i guess :) quite happy with what i wrote.

but CHINESE WAS A TOTAL SCREW UP. well, i can accept the fact that the paper was no easy one, but the thing that pissed me off was my state of mind during the 2hrs. those 2hrs were like hell.
firstly, i had running nose and i kept sniffing. so that kinda like lowered my concentration and later on, my eyes hurt like crap ):
and i had no idea why but my mind was in a mess.
and i kept hear voices in my head telling me: you're time is running out" "you cannot finish the paper in time" "you're not gonna do well" "you are so screwed"
i kept trying to fight away these noises but they keep coming back, louder than before.
i kept panicking towards the end because i really thought i couldn't. and my whole mind was super tensed up that i couldn't think straight.
i remembered at one point of time, it was so bad that i wanted to walk out of class there and then.

sian i wonder what happen to me ):
i know that i couldn't have done well for that paper, but at least if it wasn't for the my brain condition, i could have done better ):
hate those kinda feelings when you know you messed up a paper.