its over for bdiv.
although i've never really experience what they are feeling right now, but im sure the feeling you get when you put your heart and soul into something you love, and what you get is nothing but a huge disappointment, sucks.

our batch had a batch talk today, and jocelyn told us that they let us down and mostly coach down so we should not let history repeat itself and we decided that we must hard work and strive towards winning nats next year. we are doing this because we want to win, we are doing this because we love softball, we are doing this for coach, we are doing this to prove that we are strong. WE ARE DOING THIS BECAUSE WE REALLY WANT IT AND WE ARE ONE. i really really really love softball and my batch. my batch is like a family to me. i feel super comfortable in cereals. your classmates change every 2 years but batchmates are there for your entire 4 years. CEREALS!♥
and i think that coach is really awesome cause he bears with our everything and continue believing that his girls are always the best and paying for our equipments from his own pocket despite how we've not really acted as a team and how we are always not giving our best during matches and training, how the school system sucks and how little he is paid,but he never abandoned us to find greener pastures .coach is the best. thank you coach for being our coach.
im suddenly so motivated to train and my goal is to get on the field at least once.

and 314 won class decor, it came to me as a surprise coz our class is like hmmm...idk how to say...just not the first prize material. everybody was woah our class like that also first arh. super funny. but i guess that winning this is really significant to 314 as its like our first thing that we won and it really shows that we can work well? but im really happy that we won. :)

oh no. i havent done my homework ): this is so depressing. this is called slacking resting,
i agree with karen about one thing:

"no matter how many boring and depressing things happen in a day, there is sure to be at least one thing that made me laugh that day. And that one happy thing erases all the bad things that could ever happen."
-karen

i think that its really true. look on the bright side of life man!
things to complete:
1. Chinese worksheet.
2. study for maths ga
3. complete biozone
4. go moodle find out about tudong issue.

LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE ON LIFE. ITS ONLY 4 NOT 10 :) wow this so helpful.
rarh...mlia.

screw rs. argh i hate rs ttm. like what??? as if its gonna be of any help when i grow up. now there is only me and mich in the group, we need 1 more person NOWWWW. at first theres like me, mich, amanda and reetz and and some stoops say that there can only be 3 in a group, like wth la. so in the end we ended up breaking up. and now we need to decide on a topic. rarhhhhh. im gonna kill someone soon!!!!

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!

yay today is new years eve!!! this is so exciting. i've been waiting for cny to come since like the end of last year! new clothes and money! anyway, i think that our school is so stingy. its new year eve's eve and there is no half day. we still have to go to school as per normal and STUDY! ):

AHHH. im feeling happier now. :)

training is fun today. coz the sec1s are here for training! i realised that the sec1s all have low socks which is a good sign. but there is no leftys and they are all so small. ): gawsh. and i feel so proud that i can remember all their names :) but i bet by next training i will forget them all.

today i realised thatim starting to lose the momentum. i am starting to slack off. and i am feeling a little lost in some subjects alr. shit i need to FOCUS AND CONCENTRATE before its too late and i start drowning in the sea.

im so looking forward to the new year because its a long break(YES I NEED IT DESPERATELY), got money, and its my birthday! *hint hint*

i think bob is coming. i feelso pms-sy. D:

someone talk to me. i feel like ranting and i dont wanna to rant to myself. i try my best to be nice and accept her but i cant do it. i reached my limit alr i tell you.

If I could punch you without getting in trouble, believe me, i would

pissed the whole day. i think im little over reacting but its all bob's fault. !@#$%!@#$%&

CRAP! I THINK I AM MAD!!!!!
instead of complete the list of homework, here i am feeling like crying.
aiyoh. cannot. wth is wrong with me?!
listening to music makes me sad. i feel sad but im not sure why.
friends? homework? life? i think is a bit of everything. my life is in a mess.
i can do this.i can do this. i can do this.
yes you can michelle.

dear God,
please help me get through life and learn to deal with obstacles that come my way.
amen.

shit i just realised that i have damn a lot of homework to be complete. i guess i was wrong about not feeling that pressure. rarh. crap shit. andi totally agree with the facebook that says:
Two days is not enough time for a weekend.
teachers give a hell lot of homework and expect us to complete in 2 days. HELLO. WEEKENDS ARE FOR BREAK! i cant work 7 days a week.

house prac today was fun! i didnt learn the whole dance and i felt so paiseh when we had to teach house comm. i like WHAT THE CRAP? I NVR LEARN THAN NEED TO TEACH. haha.
later we had a mass dance flash mob. haha we pretended to not know anything when the music came on and just randomly start dancing. and the rest of the mass dancecapts will join in. its so cool and funny! I LOVE IT!
the mass dance this year is fantastic. the song is reach for the stars by s club and the chereograph is so cool. ♥♥♥ so much better than last year and its so easy. haha so hsm-y. weee.
after house prac me ginteng and karen went for lunch. didnt really talk much la.

yea, so now i have to complete:
1) maths stats worksheet
2) 2 geog fas
3) write notes to triangles
4) read physics txtbk
5) read geog txtbk
6) file my stuff

all these within ard 36h. fml.

i just realised that i reached my 400th post on my previous post. lol random.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINTENG! ILY! ♥

i gave her a self made photoframe and i am super proud of it. my 2h of hardwork turned out nice!

nothing much happen in school la. just that maths pt is shit. our group is in deep deep shit.

during rs block yesterday, me karen ginteng and bowling talked. its quite good since we havent talked for a long while. tmr go for lunch must talk. i feel so bottled up. cheer up bowling, "at the end of every tunnel there will be light" just smile. the sudden realisation that in sec3, people are starting to falter, scares me.but i will press on cos im trading my sorrows for the joy of the lord.

Today something not so pleasant happen in class. Although i dont know what really happen, but what joeline said was really true and i am partially guilty of it. i know that it not right but sometimes i cant help it and i am trying my best. Somehow i feel very bad about it and when joe cried...it really made me want to do smth abt it. From tmr, i will do my best to fix it and i will do it because it comes from my heart and not because of any other thing. Math lesson tmr is a good chance to show love. Im sorry for not treating you like a friend.
And today, i realised joe is actually a very nice person:)

I will HER a chance and myself a chance.

Love your neighbour as yourself.

happy birthday felly!

i have been damn busy the whole weekend. someone save me.
sat: house prac, tuition and go auntie koon sin's house
sun: church and youth outing
so far school's been monotonous. and its only been 5 weeks? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE SEC3? but i havent felt the pressure YET. there's nothing really fun about class thats worth blogging about . argh. i think its too dead. i hope this is only because we are not used to each other and not because we are really too peaceful. cant wait for the cny hols. i need a break from school.
half a term has gone by. siannnn. time passes so slowly ): only watching super junior videos and listening to korean songs can make me happy :)
SUPER JUNIOR♥♥ RYEOWOOK♥

and i realise that i can actually do without a handphone for 2 days. haha. left it in sandra's car without knowing and i survive the weekend with no probs at all. technology isnt everything. but music is everything. without my ipod, i will seriously die arh.

reflection for the week:
1. save more money
2. dont gradually start to slack
3. read the bible daily.