today wasnt really exciting or anything. just mundane la. but actually this is the first time since like a long while i can wake up at my own time and be at home all day. today i just suju-ed the whole day. haha.

and i realised that my craze over suju started like damn late can. i read charis and sheree's blog and i found that like exactly 1 yr ago they were alr suju crazy, and i just started a few weeks ago. -.- stalking their blogs to find out more abt suju. lol. i ran out of suju vids to watch le. i keep rewatching them until i can memorise. FIND ME MORE VIDS!

oh well. SUJU hwaiting!!!! ss2 is not coming to singapore. ): WHY???!!!!
and my goal is to learn marry u on the piano. i must master it!!!
oh probably the next thing i will master is korean language! ha.
i only know babo and sarang hae! and a few others.

yay back from children's camp. i think yesterday was the awesomest day so far since the holidays started.

i came with jolie at around 8.30. then we stoned a whiel and worship started. morning worship was ok. debrief was damn funny lah. later we went to play ultimate frisbee. i suck. then we played for a while then i think jeremy(?) threw it into someone's house. haha. but we nvr got it back.

after the very nice pizza lunch, we played silent heart attack the version where if you get 1 set you do an action and everybody must follow. last people up one level. and cant talk to higher level. then i kenna trick by amos twice. but ha! i had my revenge. so in the end i was lvl 6.

then a few of us went to nearby to play l4d! omg fun. but me and ariella sucked. i at first blur blur one. and my hand eye coordination sucked. even after i understood the game, i still cant control ): always kenna stuck in the corner one.

went back to play poker and had dinner. and then was night worship. NIGHT WORSHIP ROCKED! \m/ i loved it alot. me and ranice had so much fun doing the action and she told me the ultimate secret. :)
i (L)(L)(L)(L)(L) night worship. mingling with kids and stuff were really awesome. the mood super high.

worshipping with the kids was even better then youth worship. somewhow it seemed so much more then just the usual singing and dancing to songs during youth. i wanna do this again. seeing the kids smile make me smile too.

ariella's party is fun fun fun! me and dominique were late cause met at bukit batok mrt late and plus the fact that we got off the bus too early and we walked like 3 stops to save money. -.-
playing water bomb pwns man. and the guards are stupid. we wetted the condo floor so the guard came and then she made us clean the floor. everybody was like so quiet then suddenly jelaine was like:"the water evaporates, you learn that in science...right?" omg i was like shocked la. she actually dare to rebutt. and hui er resembles heather. later we played whacko.haha damn funny. and i love the dress nic made ariella during project runway. its nice and stupid made her boob implants go from a to cc cup. lol. her boobs looked more like tumour. LOL.

It was nice knowing ariella's friends and breanna. :) hahaha. oh i love the homemade ice cream cake. yummmmmyyyy.

recenlt, i've have been so caught up in excessive fangirling and overflooding of activities that i sometimes lose myself. i need to stop and find me back.
and randomly, BABO is my new favourite word.
"nonononono HA!"

as much as i try to love you, i cant. you just piss me off everytime. i put up with all your nonsense but you just go overboard. i am trying my best to make peace. and im sorry if i hurt you. but dont push the limits.

ok ltm's post just now SUCKED. want better post go my blog. (:

yay i am back from 6a chalet. :) very fun! but was kinda short.

YES! I FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING THE 13eps of ehb. super junior! and guess whats the time now? 2.53am. amazing. i never stayed up so late to watch something. gosh. its addictive. i shall find more vids to watch when i wake up.

chalet in 8h time. cant waittttttt.

busy-ness is over.
concert ytd was fun! fun! fun! stage make up sucks. they go put damn a lot and they screwed up my hair. ): my hair was literally BOOMZ. but oh well its fun. i forgot one part of hero and but nvm la. on the whole, its quite good. :)

sleepover at ariella's house and went to church this morning. omg i think we screwed up pk worship, really. but we are new la. i hope next time well be better. i need to learn to be more not stage fright. and INTERACT MORE!

I CANT WAIT FOR 6A CHALET TMR! WOOOOO~
go watch ehb ep8 5/5. damn niceeeeeee. haha
i <3 suju!

back from sleepover and training.

lets start with training today. one of the best training, for me at least. my batting is improved. warm up batting never felt so good in a long time :) i dont stand like an " old woman" anymore. :) and throwing is not bad too. although fielding needs more improvement, esp fly balls. i think i did ok today. so im feeling happy.

sleepover was fun! steph's house is amazingly HUGE! like wow!!!!! and april isnt as scary as i thought she would be. but i didnt dare go near her.
we played water balloons. took like 45mins to blow and its gone in 5 mins.
then bathe and had bbq dinner. too much food liao. but i love it. haha. the bbq was damn nice!
and we played true colours while liting is obssessed with her new found interest, piano.
later, played poker upstairs, while using rochers to bet.
aftering watching project runway, me kim and liting went up to sleep while the rest watched ANTM. slept like damn early.
never had such a filling breakfast. it was so awesome with all those bacon, egg, muffin, cornflakes, bread,milo.
training.

yay! sleepover was fun and i ♥ my batchies! thanks stephs parents!!!!

i gonna be damn busy this weekend. so byesss.

yay. today i went shopping with my mum. and i bought loads of stuff!!! hahah and GUESS WHAT?! i bought this super cool look-like-wah-so-expensive-jacket FOR ONLY $5 at song & song! \m/
yea man! so awesome! i love my new jacket. i will not wash it ever!! so nice and uber nice. hahaha. yay tmr is sleepover at steph's house wooohoo.

ok now i am very high coz i just watched finish INTIMATE NOTE SUJU! yay! so damn funny. esp the miss intimate. hahaha.
and the last part" the biggest charm of this is that it is anonymous." LOL. GO WATCH NOW!

it sucks not knowing where in life i'm heading and when home doesnt feels like home.

oh man i am so damn busy on this coming weekend and the following. ): so many church stuff to do.
but i am gonna have fun! i cant wait for the 80's concert! SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO CUT UP A SHIRT!!!

i just read amanda's facebook note to 204. i just cant help but agree. thanks amanda for that wonderful note. really echoes my feelings. ♥204'09 ttm!

the past two days have been eventful. slept over at kim's house! haha damn funny. keep watching suju's mv and i found sudden interest in ryeowook!<3 so hot. hahaha. everybody says he is. he owns sung min!

WELL DONE SEC 1s for mass dance. :) prac so hard, it finally paid off.
the teacher's band performance was awesome! :) haha and dayana crushed mr toh. :O but it was really great coz it got me so high and jumpy. esp the nobody song. haha awesome songs man.

rgs nite was damn cool. me,kim,ginteng and karen cabbed there. saw charis there. the performances before the intermissions were great but i was damn bored coz i am not someone who can appreciate the arts. so i just kept trying not to fall asleep. i loved the musical! great job vicyeo~! although i was kinda bored by the cliche plot, but i think it was a very very nice job done there. so well done.

acp was fail la. our class was so quiet and all the food were gone by the first shift. kinda boring but i ate a lot :) 202's haunted thingy so cool. i kenna freaked when i was crawling under the table and a face appeared on my right. omg. but oh well. we won the best jingle. yay. go vic!

went out for lunch with karen, vanyap, vic,kim and chingyee. haha i laughed so hard talking abt all the funny stuff. :)

its the last day of school( and as a 204rian). i know i said this a thousand times, but thanks for everything 204. WE ARE AWESOME. i got loads of things to say, but aiya...you read until sleep. so nope. goodbye friends.
i love you guys. :)

argh i hate arts fest. waste my time and money.

first i spent 3.5h straight cutting ribbons for mass dance..its like 135m worth of ribbons can! and then i wasted 1h going to clementi just for 4 packs of marshmallows. -.-
and i need to collect 1.50 for the acp stuff. why the hell doesnt the school pay for us. at first we were supposed to sell it and we were given $100 to buy ingridients and now we are giving away food for FREE and we are paying the stuff ourselves. wth man. what kind of logic is this la. i have no money still must pay.

stoops.

i will procrastinate writing letters. i am dead tired now.

this is random but i really think that 204 is awesome cause when we sense something aint right, we trash it out and make sure we clear it up, instead of sitting around and waiting for something to happen or even speculating. ithink that its really something.

anger is an emotion foreign to me. so please, no. i wasnt angry.
i hardly get angry with anyone unless your name is Julian Ng Wei Jie.
please not let this affect anything.

hello. yay i had two sleepovers in a row. haha. friday one was fail can. but online convos with random strangers are damn hilraious.
and ariella came and we both watched red candy aka one missed call 2. scary but its quite nice la. hahaha. and i went high in church today. LOL. adrenaline!

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in the ginteng and reetaza planned "gandong" speech, they came with the intention to make people cry, but in the end, they themselves spoke unplanned words and they cried.

its somehow like how we all entered rgs,each with a different intention, whether is it to have fun, make friends, impress others, start afresh, achieve great things or whatever. but as time pass, we faced and overcome challenges, met people who inspired us, encounter different circumstances and subconsciously, we let our guards down, show our true self and forget about what we aimed to achieve at the beginning.

at the end of the day, whether or not we achieve these goals we set, it no longer matter because what we receive and gained is more than what we asked and hoped for.

i am not sure why i am saying all these, but the thought just suddenly came.

i was glad i didnt follow my parents to some ancestor land thingy or i would have missed the awesome class party.

so anyway started oof with sec 4 farewell. i personally felt that it was kinda boring. its like watching tv. but oh well, our time will come. AND CONGRATS TARBET FOR WINNING BOH AND 2ND FOR CHEER!

class party yesterday was damn emo. i think we are the only class that cried lor. at first it was damn quiet ,everybody else was just eating coz no ipods were allowed.

later i decided to bring up the mood a little by letting us watch 104's video. (ha i had the foresight to bring it, LOL!) and celine started crying again. later ginteng and reetz went up to give a speech with the intention of making everybody else cry. bg was pengyou and the 204 photos playing. but in the end ginteng haven even talk for 1 minute, she started crying too. that moment was where everyone cried. i thought words that words from the heart was so much more sincere and powerful than words that were planned. later it was just sing along and i got everybody else to join hands and sing the graduation and peng you song. i wanted to cry and when i started hugging bowling, i teared. i thought i wouldnt cry but i just couldnt hold it back any longer.

i am really gonna miss you 204. thanks for the memories.

YEA MAN! I BOUGHT THE SHOCK PEN! like finally. haha. now i owe vic $8. :( and steph dropped it on the floor after pressing it and now its not working properly. they cheapo one. the guy tried to trick me into pressing the thingy but i resisted, but in the end i still kenna conned by him.
its so fun going around tricking people but apparently sarah is immune to it. rarh. you no fun!

and it was quite encouraging during mass dance prac today coz sec 1s was all so enthu. :) although sometimes i feel like punching people who dont do it despite our persuasions, but i guess seeing the end result of the whole dance really made it worth while la.

Tmr is sec 4 farewell. i bet there is gonna be a look a lot waterworks. but i know i wont cry. the sad feeling just cant translate into tears la. and ginteng you are gonna treat us to a tube of mentos for sure. good luck for your speech. haha. AND YOU STUPID LA, go tell wenyun i stalk her, somemore give her my blog url. omg i have to be so conscious of what i post now. argh.

ok i shall start on my reflection thing-day 1.

Find a way out, not excuses.


"lets talk about life" i realise we always say this during lunches...life is such a broad topic that we don't know where to start. everytime i think about life, it leads to another thought and there seems to be no boundary. there is just so much stuff to be covered.
i no longer want to be labelled as innocent,simple-minded and naive. i want to change. just give me time. i will prove to you and myself i can do this.

i'm pretty sure fear grips everyone when you think about leaving the people who survived with you in a totally new environment, the people whom you had so much fun with and cared for you when you needed support, the people whom you study with, and the people you call friends.

i thank you God that i have been put in a class with all these awesome people, its all by fate that we were placed together. it feels like yesterday when first stepped into the gates of RGS and gradually, winning the orientation skit, rhd dance, netcarn, and definitely karaoke comp. we've been through a lot as a class and i can say it with conviction that we are the most kiasu best class ever in RGS. its amazing that we seemed like we knew one another from the start of time when we were only strangers a mere 2 years ago.

i cant imagine(or maybe its just that i don't want to) myself calling something else besides 204 my class. it just doesnt feels right...but i know in a few months time, i will probably sing a different tune, praising how awesome my class is and stuff.

sometimes when i think of how impossible it is to find the friends you can mix with like you do in 204, i do wish i could stay with 204 forever. its really hard to let go of this relationship that you gave your 100%, but you just have to.
but think of it this way, would you rather experience many fond memories together and where the impact of leaving really hurts like hell or experience a short-lived happiness where separation hurts less.

if it was me, i would choose the latter, cause the pain would have left a greater impact on me then these happy moments.

thank you 204 for giving me such a wonderful experience in RGS and as we walk down different paths, i sincerely hope that you guys would still remember 204'09...

coz we are TWO cool FOUR you!

the bus ride to school is damn fun. $4!!! me kim vic and shihui got a picture of epsb(elongated primary school boy). the seating position was perfect can. i was next to him. haha. yea man. i took from a damn nice angle and the picture turned out well but i sacrificeda lot. there was this cjc boy who sat beside vic. he kept looking at us the whole ride as though we are pervs. haha. so embarrassing. but i think its totally worth the cost.
i fail at being a private investigator la. i made it so obvious. but i mean how can you get a good shot it you are so discreet? argh. but its damn funny. :D

OMG i damn tired today. esp after the mass dance. i was damn pig can. during acp prep i slept for about 45mins and at esna class i slept for 1h. haha. but i am still tired!

during acp prep we did our karaoke. i think we rock! haha.
aiyo..recently everybody sick. hini is back! :O even the never-fall-sick coach also sick, then we train ourselves today. it was damn slack can. haha. coach get well soon!

i rock at taidi. i tell you the next time you play with me, i am so gonna pwn you man. i got so bored i played online taidi and i winnnnn! :) eh does anybody have my sister's keeper storybook? can lend arh. i see vic so nerd shit(fyi she is the-person-who-never-reads-in-her-entire-life-and-now-she-is-reading! person), i need to buck up leh.

today school was school as usual. nothing much la.

after school, vic, kim, karen, weiqi and ginteng came to my house. haha. ginteng fell ill later and went to sleep. eh get well soon! :D we sorta karaoked and stuff. but mostly is slacking la.and now i am learning how to play down by jay sean on the piano. :) so fun!

OMG i remembered that tmr is mass dance prac. shitttzzz. i need to remember the step. or else i will malu one. :O

actually is kinda cool without parents and brother. cause i can like do anything and everything. yea man. i better treasure this week of freedom before its all over.

ARGH! being home alone aint fun at all. i am bored and bored and very bored. but oh well. at least i am glad i made the decision not to go over to china. school is way funner than visiting some ancestor land? wth? and i cant stand when other people are in sch and i am not.

when i recently read through all my 2 years worth of archives, i realised that i have grown(no, not literally) as a person and grown to be more mature. last time i used to be so childish and stuff and using too many short forms, posting stuff that are so insignificant. now at least i post more sensible stuff.

you can see the vast difference:

sob sob.... mr chua leave liao. but hor ms foo de new vp not bad la! wonder hows mr chua.... i hate me sitting arrangement. walao...sit nex 2 a duck which quacks non stop but at least still got yingjiao help me shield tt ugly freaky duck. haha! den everydae tt stupid duck burps very loud 1 leh... disgustin. i sitting nex 2 him hor very can one coz teacher will always look @ him n den if i tok hor teacher wil scold me 2. so sui...hey so would ya pity me??? donations welcome.. lelong lelong.. donations 4 de old n pathetic old lady. $1 $2. if dun haf $5oso can. $$ cheek-ching...(btw,all $$ collected wil go to my banana island account):)

pity tis old lady here! zuo duo shan shi hui you hao bao! ty!

posted on thursday june 26 2007

yea. coming to RGS has really changed me in every aspect. friends and circumstances played a big part in my difference. and i actually like the change in me. time passes really quickly, i've spent half my secondary school life in RGS. i hope the next half of life as a secondary school kid will be fun.