yesterday had all the boring talks, but thank God mel kept me company for the whole thing. i got loads of thoughts after the talk but i shant post it here.

later at night, i went for talent vogue, it wasnt as nice as last year's. it was kinda expected though, given the publicity.

but i think the entrance was damn cool. it was like walking through haunted houses. and we were all screaming and stuff but actually i saw all the people make up so i wasnt that scared. and we started hitting the people who tried to scare us. but it was fun! other than that, i dun think the night was very much interesting.

everybody so un-enthu one lor. i wanna get high also cannot ): but the teachers band and the judges was really cool. miss wu plays the piano well! haha.

yay my parents are going to china tmr for a week(and that includes julian)! yay...you know what that means...ITS FREEDOM! haha. so fun! cant wait. :D

and i have chosen trip geog. but its not like 100% sure leh. cause my decision have been swayed by everybody's opinions and i am still a little confused.

yay net carn photos are out. i look so cool. lol

today is the release of overall gpa. sucks. but get improve la. eh should i take physics or history arh. i am back to the same dilemma(sp?) i faced 2 months ago. ho! and guess what. our class video is like 40 mins long :O and the spelling mistakes and random bird park photos is what really made it hilarious. "learning journey trip to kuku" :)

anyway today we went to watch my sister's keepers. it was quite nice and quite touching but i DIDNT CRY. amanda and celine said the book more touching so maybe i should go read it SOMEDAY. but i doubt i will la. i lack the stamina to complete such a thick book i will probably gave up at like the first few pages. haha.and i found the shock pen. omg i wanna buy bt no money. ): nvm i vow to own it.

argh. i lost the loose canon consent forms. sorry 204. ): i will scan(if i know how) the consent forms to you so you can go resign it. ahhh. sorry.

204 WON NET CARN2009!

WELL DONE FRIENDS. WE ALL ROCKED TODAY!

all the hard work and training sessions paid off. and today we only lost to 202 and 207. and coincidentally(or not) i played centre in both games. damn it, i must have suck like shit thats why we lost. sorry.
and the best thing that happened is that yueshan's calmness secured our champion title. coz like 5 seconds to the end we were tying with 203(1-1) and then like at the 3rd last second yue shan managged to shoot in the winning score. LIKE OMG LA. haha. hmm. sounds like typical high school musical scene.
and i enjoyed played WA in the 209 game:) haha. LOL.and during the course of the netcarn, SOME RANDOM INTANGIBLE OBJECT keep floating around and randomly taking photos of us. omg annonying.
overall, i enjoyed myself a lot!!!!
thanks people for bringing the 204 team spirit like i never experienced before. its wonderful to see everyone just forgetting who they are and just fully committing themselves to play the game we all enjoy and bringing out the best in us. although some may not be as strong as the other but we all supported one another. and yes, we are all in this together.

now that net carn is over, there is nothing fun to look forward to in sch already. sian.
haizz. and one year from now, we will not be playing together as 204 but we will be playing against one another,representing our individual classes. its kinda sad, just thinking about it. i will really miss the feeling of togetherness and the sense of satisfaction we had as a team. bt life just goes on. i will just end here to prevent myself from feeling too sad and go download the dance videos.

204 i will always remember all the times we had together.

"204... SI BEI HO!"

i know liao, i will talk about love.:) haha. sorry i suck at writing compo so i should write in point forms. :)

love is relevant to us. since the moment we are born, we are taught to love.
there is no way you can talk your way out that love doesnt exist in your life. be it the love of money, computer, friends or family. love exists. half the time when you listen music, it talk about love. on the top of my head right now i can already list down many. but it is love really game? does it make us drunk? its love all about romeo and juliet?

1.love is not any other word in the dictionary that can be defined in a few words. (haha kope)
2.there is no life if there is no love
3.Love can make us do irrational things
4.This emotion, bring tears to our eyes when something happens to our family members, friends.
5. true love is unconditional
6.love is the greatest gift from God

love is as strong as the word hate. please dont abuse it.


"love isnt love til you give it away"-send it on by disney stars

boredom is driving me nuts. i still remember 2 weeks ago, i cannot wait for the dawn of freedom, and now i wish there is to keep me occupied.

i have been on the comp since like 4 hours ago and i have nothing to do. i visit people's blogs like almost every other hour and i can almost memorise their posts. omg. see how bored i am la.
and stupid audition cant work. sucks.

net carn prac was fun! at least i jumped a bit more. hope on monday can be better. i love net carn pracs. they are so fun! i love the 204 net carners. <3 and i made friends with the 207 centre. haha she looks like phyllis.

later karen and ginteng come to my house. haha. at first we were all doing different stuff. karen reading, i sleeping, then ginteng computering. but later we listen to songs and play on piano.

when karen left, me and ginteng sang karaoke. :D fun leh although all is chinese songs. AND I DUNNO HOW TO USE MY STOMACH TO PROJECT MY VOICE! :O
but i admit that in general chinese songs are more meaningful than english songs. and i am starting to like jay chou. last time i thought he sings rubbish and senseless songs but now i like him :)

training is fun today! haha. everytime i feel reluctant to go for training, but after training i feel so damn happy. LOL. i love training!

now, everybody is like close to their seniors and when sec 4s dont come for training anymore, they like very sad.
but i dont feel that way when batch 09 left. i guess its just coz they always pon training and stuff. i remembered during the first few months after i joined, the seniors never come one, until much later when the random people came out of no where for training, only liting told me they were our seniors. o.o

but oh well. nvm. i wont have to feel that tinge of sadness.

and i cant wait for the charity concert :D 80's dance is cool! haha.

why do i laugh thing off and carry on with life like nothing has ever happened. am i being too bo chap or its just being optimistic.
everybody says i am damn stupid. i guess its time i do something to change. i cant forever stay so stupid. or my life will go to waste.
YES I NEED TO BE REFLECTIVE. i need change!! and change will start now

my results arent too bad. at least i am happy with me chinese paper 2 and maths. tmr is gonna be a sucky da.y all the subjects are like ):
OUR CLASS SHIRT IS COOL! haha.
first training after like 5 weeks of rest, gosh i am becoming fat like a pig. i need to workout more. throwing and batting improving i think. and i had a big blister on my toe D:

on a completely unrelated note,
in the recent emo wave, somehow it got me thinking. why do people always wish that life was like a fairy tale where everybody lives happily ever after. i think people always think only about the "happily ever after part" of the story. doesnt anybody realise that before every happily ever after, there is always bound to be some sort of obstacle?
take snow white for an example,
she had to get rid of the evil witch before meeting the prince.
and in cinderella,
she had to face her stepsisters and stepmother, before marrying the prince.
isnt life the same? before a rainbow, there is always rain(or something along the line)
sticky situations are there to make us learn and grow and pick ourselves up. the moment we are born, we are destined to face trials and there is no way to avoid it no matter how hard you try.
we have to choice to smile or frown. so why not SMILE! :D and when you smile people will smile along with you.

ps this is NOT an emo post. just a thought. AND DUN CALL ME SHALLOW! ):

shopping today was not very productive. hah. but it was fun anyway. i walked for 7 hours and bought only farewell present, pokemon cards and earrings. lol. i think shopping with mums are the best. you get useful stuff. bt mummy is such a shopping queen. shop with her will die! haha. i still owe campaign ppl present. but i know what to buy liao. probably last day of sch i will give you guys. thanks for all the help. and mich bought this $20 pouch for rachael without hesitating. woah. rich arh...

my legs are chao tired now...i been shopping for so long for a long while. but if not for the need to shop, i wouldnt shop. and I NEED A MAJOR PLASTIC SURGERY NOW. and i love dao xiang!!!<3

van's party was fun! haha i didnt sing a lot though coz i cant sing and singing through the mike just amplifies it.

all the songs are old. haha but it was cool that we actually recgonise some songs. :D haha. te pizza and are nice! lol. ok. van! i owe you a present.
yay shopping today. got loads of stuff to buy. haha. die i am gonna run outta money soon. ):

i gotta feeling! lol. i have this weird feeling i cant explain. its not happy, not emo, not angry. i dunno. its like there is this empty hole inside. does anybody know how i feel? i am dying to explain and dig the crap out but i canttt. argh. maybe its because i have nothing to do, or maybe its just me and my mixed up feelings.

today morning went to netball prac. :D haha the whole sch like only got us.
center is quite fun to play though. haha. but my stamina sucks ttm. oh well. ginteng and i are planning for some hardcore training. :O
we had jumping drills. walao i damn short can. the wooden bars is so hard to reach for me while the others do until like so easy. bah. but i will grow. :D watch me but the back paddle and jump to catch drill was fun! haha. my legs hurt a little from the obvious lack of training for 5 weeks. and we have a cheer. its very cool like us. :)

nad i cant wait for tmr. party! haha. havent bought a present yet but i will on monday.

AND DRAMA NIGHT IS CANCELLED. gosh. our whole class is looking forward to acting mov in a ah beng way. bt...argh. karaoke night isnt gonna be tt bad either i guess?

WARNING: this is an emo post, read at your own risk.


cheer up michelle, cheer up. tomorrow will be a better day. i just need a sleep. and forget all of it tmr. i will not cry from now. i promised not to.
i know i did wrong, i said what i could. i meant every single thing i said. there is nothing else i could do. just pray about it.no one else can better explain the word fear right now, but i need to face the music tmr . Awkwardness doesnt scare me anymore. I just need you now, God.

"I will be still and know You are God"

and thanks karen and ginteng. i♥ you guys. this ♥, is not anyhow use one. thanks for all the support and comfort, i am really touched. haha. its great to know i have good friends there when i need them most.

i have nothing to say anymore
word run out, tears dried up.

cheer up michelle, cheer up

ps. dun bother tagging if you here to kpo about this. being kpo isnt good.


i promise never to be emo again. i read my emo post again. its scary. nah. i hate emo kias. gosh. but everything is alright after the sleep. today will be a better day and i will have short term memory and forget about yesterday.

i ♥ my new skin. i dont think i am gonna change it for a long time.

today was the last house prac. omg. went quite smoothly la. and i forgot some steps. so paiseh. eh please, i beg you, just do the thing. its gonna make my life so much easier. during house party, we were all damn hungry waiting for the sec1s that we ate first. lol. and then ginteng, karen and celine came to my house. wanted to watch the proposal but failed la. ): and we ended up taking bed scenes. LOL. gay(literally).

then later only left me and ginteng. haha. awkward. no la. not really. coz....maybe coz got com. we watched xiaxue's video. gosh its damn sick and i am gonna have NIGHTMARES FOREVER.

i cant wait for netcarn prac tmr. lol. and noooo training starts on tuesday. ): i wanna sleep.

and i'm sorry ok. didnt mean it. really.

today is a tiring day. morning was intensive mass dance prac. somemore i standing in front cannot not remember the actions. and they have to be chao big and power one. tired like crazy. the teacher was like "bend your knees" "big actions" "move your hands" and we keep doing it over and over. i was gonna drop dead anytime. but at least its better than yesterday.

later played netball short while and we all went to shaw(again). wasnt as fun coz nth to talk and i was damn tired.

later went back for health checkup.
and then sports fest.
high jump and long jump is so fun to watch. so exciting. lol. so me karen and celine ponned the being helpers and watched.
as much as i do not want to admit, ginteng is pro. joint 1st with shirlyn teo for high jump. haha. but she look super dao. pei fu! haha.

omg. waking up early again for massdance again. i am gonna dieee.

omg. i suck at teaching mass dance. gosh. i was confused and in the end everybody is confused. CHERYL HO SAVE MEEE!

i ♥ the new boomz boomz pow cheer!

after the house prac, me and ginteng and karen and celine went to eat at shaw and talked for 4hours. omg. i never talked for so long one leh. but it was FUN. haha. enough topics so sustain us.

i have a major problem with communicating! ginteng got same problem as me also. haha. I CANT STAND BEING ALONE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. because it gets awkward when we dont talk. and i feel pressured. and i also cant look someone in the eye. it scares me. i die. why i so weird one. the only people i can 2 people one is vic and kim?
next time find boyfriend i die. but i will find one can talk one. :D

i cant wait for net carn! woohoooo.

ITS THE DAWN OF FREEDOM!

waiting for today since the start of time. haha.

anyway, today was maths paper. its quite ok. hopefully can do well. like 15 mins left to the end of paper. i was already counting down liao. and 2mins left i started hyperventilating. haha. so cool and the whole class cheered at the end of the collection of the paper. its so cool.

so after school we went to plaza sing to watch 500! me, amanda,kim,karen,celine and mish went to watch while weiqi,vic.mary and reetz went to watch meatballs. haha. its ok i guess. i didnt really like it coz not as funny as i thought. gah. but the last part is gay. "my name is autumn" so anti climatic. but meatballs raining down cant be that good as well.

i am starting to get bored. ): thats fast. but oh wait i need to learn massdance. ok off i go

7 down, 3 to go.

yes. i am alr in the post eya mood le..die i better concentrate. today there is nothing much to study coz tmr is english. i shall slack a bit or maybe i will read the whole dicitonary. i already slept for 4 hours le. haha. my first nice nap in a long while.
and i am addicted to 987fm! muttons to midnight ftw! cant wait for 8pm today coz there is justin's jokes.

ok to make myself feel better and give me motivation to survive 5 more day, i shall write a list of what i am looking forward to

looking forward to:
1. net carn
2. drama nite
3. acp
4. cambodia mission trip
5. 6a chalet
6. youth outing?

6 down, 4 to go.
and 6 more days to...

FREEDOM.

COUNTDOWNNN IS SO FUN. PROVIDES ME WITH MOTIVATION. andi fill happy when i can erase the previous and write a number smaller. yay. i think i screwed up my lit today ): but who cares. i dont have to take lit FOREVER. :))


EEEE why no one tag one. nvm i cant be bothered either.

tambourine and streamers and really fun stuff. i wanna do this again. and damn! not being able to fit into the skirt is a sign i need to lose weight. but i am always hungry ):
i shall pretend that nothing happened.

in mission trip, i will be in the streamers thing. woohooo. awesome. but i really wanan be in the outdoor one leh. ah well.

ok anyway good luck to everybody(if anybody is reading). byeee.