I am feeling so confused. I dunno what confuses me.

We had some discussion yesterday about people. They told me about some people are not as simple as you think they are. they are not who you see them as. everyone is hiding something and they seem to like you on the surface, but behind you they are a total b*tch. I have been brainwashed. I wish i wasnt. I wish I wasnt there. especially in schools like RGS, there is bound to be rivalry and backstabbings. if you dont like someone, why dont you just say so, why keep mum thinking that something is gonna change. people are talking behind each other's back. but that is not whats scary. what really scares me is that they still act like nice in front of the person. Knowing too much is really bad. I am thinking too much. suddenly everything seems so clear. I can only place my trust in God.

Why is everybody so cynical. cant we all just be a being simple. Now i am being on my guard against everyone. i prefer the simpler me. i wish i never grew up. i wish we could all be in kindergarten days where no one knew the meaning of hatred, everyone were friends with everyone.
there is so much politics going on amongst those vying for the top position. If i knew that had happened, i wouldnt have chose to run.
btw, for everything i said above, i wasnt referring to anyone in specific.
WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD.


i will be fine very soon.
during the whole movie, i wasnt really concentrating. but the show was pretty much ok.