I officially quit piano. Should I be happy or sad? By logic, I should be happy, but now I am not a bit happy. In fact, I am crying now. The years of hard work just went downthe drain...it's really a pity. Have I been wasting 7 years of my life and my parents' hard earn money doing something I know nothing fruitful will be achieved? My mum said to me these exact words: you don't need to go for piano lesson FOREVER! Haven't I waited for my mum to say this sentence for years. but I don't feel a tinge of excitement in me. Have I made the wrong desicion? Have I made the wrong move? Will this change my life forever? Looking at the piano, hearing the melody played with it, touching the keyboardwith my hands...Have I really done the wrong thing? I never like practicing the piano,but now I would really love to practice with all my heart. Now is my piano lesson. the time of the week I dreaded the most, but now I yearn to have it.Nobody will ever be able to understand how I feel right now. even I don't know how to feel. What would be of my piano. It will be left untouched with all me painful memories...let me forget those.... I wish I could have the power to turn back time and wished I never requested to stop piano. All because of my lack of perseverance, I caused hurt to many people around me. Am I being selfish? It's all my fault. I never felt so bad and I never will again. All I can say is I am sorry grandma, I am not able to fulfill your wish for me to complete grade 8. I am sorry auntie Doris(my piano teacher). You are the best teacher ever, so kind and patient towards me. Thank you so much.But I just can't bring myself to love what I hate. I am very sorry...


ps..feeling emo now...will be back to normal in shortest tym:a week longest tym:1 month.